There's a lot to say about this really .. first of all most of u know that I hate my father .. he's an abusive bastard who beats me , my mom , my sisters and my brothers .. anyway . My mom tried escaping from him .. the thing is .. my mom has no family .. she's an orphan .. but she took us all and went to the family that raised her .. this family is from the royal family in our country .. and so we thought that finally we will be able to live our lives peacefully .. but things were getting out of hand .. my mom's so called brother who promised her that he will take care of us all and keep my father away was the same person who sold us out .. this is a friend of my father's .. imagine that .. he sold his sister just for the sake of his friendship w my father .. and this so called friendship is all based on mutual intrests .. anyway them both .. when I felt that I was losing everything I tried another way of saving my mom and sisters from my father and so I stabbed him in the neck .. he didn't die .. my mom's bro covered it up and he ing USED that incident to send us back to my father .. the .. I found love in that time .. he's one of the orphans in their house .. tall . Funny . Cute . Caring and cool .. he's a cop he's also a biker and he's just so awesome in playing call of duty hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh he's just such an amazing guy I couldn't help but fall for him .. of course that didn't go all too well .. my father hates his guts .. and since we got out of their house I couldn't meet up w him nor see him ever since .. and to top it all up now I'm being forced into an arranged marriage .. I don't have anything to say nor do .. all I can do is just get along w it and leave the love of my life .. but I won't leave him .. I will keep him there next to me .. as a friend .. not a lover cuz I can alot of things but I'm not a cheater .. being married and having an affair w the man I love is cheating and I will not do that .. but I will keep him in my heart for ever .. I will try to take care of him . Show him what love means cuz he doesn't know what love is no one ever loved him .. he lived without a family his entire life .. no one ever showed him what love is .. he told me once "u love me so much I don't know what to do with it" he killed me even more when he said "why can't I marry u .. what is it that he has and I don't ?! .. is it cuz I have no father and no mother ?! It's not my fault" ... I didn't know what to say .. but I promised him w everything that I have that I will stay there and I will find him someone who can love him the way he deserves to be loved .. cuz yes I do love him that much and even more .. I love him so much I'm ready to watch him be happy w someone else even if kills me inside .. cuz all that matters is him being happy .. him being safe and him being protected .. he's everything to me .. he's my life .. I know I might love the one I'm marrying in the future .. but I will never forget him .. even if my love to him changes into something else but it wil never fade away