Just so you know, I'm kinda a freshman.... Sooo

oh whatever halp

plz

theres this guy

YEAH THERES THIS GUY

OMG I DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN THIS BUT THERES THIS GUY

do I ever mention how anti social I feel?

like I don't even talk to people and when I do, it comes out the WRONG WAY

I NEVER KNEW HOW I BECAME A STUTTERING MESS TALKING TO PEOPLE AND MY VOICE EVEN CRACKS

AND THE TEACHER USES A TOILET SEAT AS A HALL PASS (completely irrelevant)

anyway, I'm from the Asian nerd crowd 

the crowd who you either are watching every move and listen in on every convo of the pop kids

or you know NOTHING AT ALL

since my previous school is pretty much across the street from my current school, there's not that many new faces, and more attention on me for being from that school.....

so THIS GUY

I haven't talked to him sine the first year of the last school........ BUT THIS GUY IS SOO COOL no/wonder/I/avoided/him/he's/too/cool

omg he is so cool like what even his hair is soooooo soft

hes tall

his hair

he SWIMS 

his hair

Swimmer body *_*

his hair

he knows everybody and he's really nice

his hair

i stare at his back for an entire hour every school day

his hair

he understands awkward situations and CAN RELATE (WAHT?)

his hair

(here's something I learned today) HE LIKES ANIME 

he's so PERF. Kill me now. He's on student body, swim team, has two younger siblings and during his free time he looks at himself on his swim team's blog. I know his ex gfs, he's okay so so about Kpop and he makes the most refreshing spring rolls evaaarrrr

Did I also mention his PERF hair?

/cries and fangirls on the side, looking from afar/

HE STARTED TALKING TO ME 

WHAT DO I DO

OMG SOMEONE HELP ME

MY OWN SCHOOL FRIENDS ARENT EVEN HELPING ME

HE'S BUTTING INTO MANY OF MY CONVERSATIONS

WE HAD THE SAME CHOCOLATE CANDY

OMG WHAT DO I DO?

AND NOW THAT HE STARTED TALKING TO ME, OTHER PEOPLE ARE STARTING TO TALK TO ME

BUT IM JUST THE ACTIVE NERD IN THE CLASS WHO DOESNT KNOW SHES ACTUALLY FUNNY SOMEHOW BUT EVERYONE LAUGHS ANYWAY. YEAH IM FUNNY LAME KINDA PERSON

because of him, I look at myself and I feel really bad cause he's so PERF and I'm not.......

when I talk to people out of my small group, I can't stop stuttering or trying my Brest to not put attention on me but I can't cause I can't stop talking cause intend to babble a lot when I'm nervous but when I talk I can't form real sentences somethimes or I have a train of thought in my head and what comes put of my mouth is the beginning of the thoughts and the cobbus (the end thought) like what ever happened to the part and how the two even relate omg.

this is the first time a PERF guy talks to me.... 

But I'm still trying to find out how to talk to senpai >_< 

senpai is so cool and good at dancing!! She gave me. High ten once cause I was dancing next to her to be closer to her in anime club.

her hir is the AWESOME EST EVER OMG the messy hairstyle looks so cool on her omg

i pass by her on the stairs every day.

she's prettier than the city of Florence (haha haha puny cause that's her name)

i wonder if she sees me stare at her, or when I send a small wave at her outside of school.

*sigh* I know I have no chance with her...... A senior friend of mine in choir has a friend who has a crush on her too.

im pretty sure he'll confess soon..... It would be awkward to only get to know her her senior year and then she leaves...

/cries/ I'll find someone......

my sister's friend who I hang out with (another senior who's 'experienced' with both side) tells me to get a girlfriend before getting a boyfriend and to test the waters.... But I don't even know what other people like. Heck I barely understand what I like....