Yongguk has always be my second bias in B.A.P, ever since the first time I knew him, which was around 2 years ago. I have never had any "romantic" feelings towards him except proud and respect for his position as B.A.P's strong leader that have bring B.A.P to it's succeess and fame. Other than that... No?

But then

Lately I've been reading ton(s) of fanfics that made Yongguk as a father. And tbh, I really enjoy reading them (although I don't like fluff/family kind of fics, but now when it comes to yongguk, I surely read them) I know they are just fics, BUT HE'S FREAKING HOT IN THE FICS OTL OTL OTL I love how the writers made him as a really caring father of his children and LOVING HUSBAND WHO SOOTHED HIS WIFE AFTER (lmao sorry but my feelings.. I JUST CAN'T... IT'S JUST BEYOND MY IMAGINATION) Plus lately he has been posting pictures of kids and the latest was a pcture of him with a boy whom B.A.P and Miss A visited last 2 years due to his hearing problem... OMG I'm just glad that he visited the boy back... That makes him more and more more more attractive in my eyes 

TBH, I'm someone who have never dreamed of having a family, well I used to tell myself that I don't want to get marry, because I think hurts, I don't really like kids and I find divorce as a really sad thing... If a guy loves you, and promised you that he will stay until the very end..He will stay. No matter what. I looked marriage as a very sad thing... I know I'm too young and immature to judge but I'm getting sick seeing a lot of divorcement around me. 

A few years back, I've dreamt of a kind-of-wet-dream where I hugged a guy's back. Although I don't really recognized who was it but now after seeing Yongguk's ... I know whom does it belongs to  The irony is, during the time, I was not interested in Kpop and plus, B.A.P wasn't debuted yet during the time.. Ah <3

So after reading the fics, I have a desire to create a family and put more interest on marriage.. I'm no longer an aual person, and I try to see guys in different way (although it's really hard... like really, because guys around me are es, sorry not sorry)

I also love to see babies and kids these days, only now do I realized that they are really cute creature and sometimes, I wonder if I have a bit of motherly instinct growing in me? ^^ 

I'm hoping to meet a guy who are just like Yongguk... Not only the way he act, his manners, his brain (yongguk was a top student back during his high school days), but also his face, maybe? haha jkjk ^^ But if someone can fulfill that, why not? 

I love you Yongguk, but Zelo is still in my top bias list