ok...

so.. um... 

this is probably going to be pointless and idk, i just wanted to write it down.

anyway, sbs gayo daejun was fun with many great performances and aiyu looked pretty and others were awesome. 

the friendship project was really cool and all my favs were together, *yaay* i guess..

exo were cool aiyu was awesome as always snsd were fab f(x) you can't handle the prettiness lee hyori cl queens,

and yeah enough with the pointless intro, the point here,

what happened?  

exoshidae(?) --> happened, exou--> did not.

so the tts x exo performance i really liked and they were all pretty/ handsome and taeyeon was like god my fav <3 and then couple dance happpened and then seohan happened  and it was just like, ouch.

that perf was like amazing/heartbreaking for meh.. dunno how can that be. 

i mean i was torn they were cute and all but at the same time i was like:

LUHAN WHAT ABOUT URI JIEUN LIKE HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO MEH I SHIP YOU TWO DAMMIT YOU HEARTLESS HUMAN.

/calming myself down

and i was pissed because i couldn't see aiyu anywhere in the idols section/ seats, where were you babe? :c 

to add on, no special performances, no appearances, no fanboying during perf *yes am that childish* no enough jieun for me.

like seriously although last year she didn't perform, she mc-ed and got a lot of screen time+ exou moments were crazy. to think it this year was her year with many awesome things happening but for the gayos only this much? not happy :(

and god dammit like can't we have an exou collab for the sake of everything alive???? am dying here...

knowing sm, they only do it between their artists and for 'outsiders' this probably wouldn't happen unless some event occur and the planning team arrange something *like the taemin/iu duet* and for that to happen the possibilities are little... sad sad sad ouch

*whispers lightly: "can't aiyu be in sment? life as an exou shipper would be much more easier."* no that would ruin her..... /logic side arises

i will just continue to cry about my misfortune for loving those idiots and shipping them ridiculously like there's no tmw i need to stop but i can't like help me. /sobs

mbc gayo, i'm putting my hopes in you... /walks away with a tissue in hand