i am an eldest too but fear God my friend. He will give you a brighter future next time. i am too not a good daughter to my mum and always been scolded for something i don't do but keep on trusting to God. when you get older and tired of their blaming, you can just rebel them. rebellion is better than commiting suicide. :)

Awwww dont say that!!!

Eonnie... Don't do suicide. Please. I know how you feel... some of my cousins are total sl**y b****s . They're one of the reasons why I almost committed suicide a couple months ago. If you die, do you know how many people will miss you? Your brother will miss you, your friends on Asianfanfics and school will miss you, and eventually your family will feel absolute regret and be miserable for the rest of their lives...Do you really want that? Whether you choose to or not... You should stay for the life ahead of you... Try to find more people who make you happy. So... Don't do anything stupid, eonnie.

hey hey hey. i'm the eldest too and i've been through that 'why can't I just die' and it's really difficult.
don't decide when your heart is in storm and breathe, pray and think positive. Appreciate all the good things that you have and will have. If u need someone to talk with... I'll volunteer and i'll try my best to be asdfghjkl with you even though i'm awkward as .
unnie loves u even though we don't really talk much and I don't want you dead. pls live <3 ~ *begs*

as you get older, you learn that life isn't all about puppies, rainbows and unicorns. it's just a fact of life and it's only just going to get worse. but the thing is, that you find things that you like and love that make living in this hell called life that makes it worth loving.

for me, i've usually been the one with the 'least love'. i'm the youngest of two and female. in an still too traditionally wrapped family, that's pretty much two negatives packed nicely in one. for allowances, i got the least amount of money and was cast aside second as i grew older. mind you, back when i was little, everyone thought a daughter was the most adorable thing ever. the fact that i was the only daughter from my mom's side of family brought along all sorts of love. but grow up, daughters are nothing apparently. but if i tell this to my brother, he'll think otherwise. it's a funny thing how this sharing love thing works. it's just human nature i suppose, to assume everything's worse for us; come the reason for the term 'the grass looks greener on the other side'. life it's over.

and your parents. it took many months of you inside your mother's stomach to be born. having a child isn't just snap your fingers magic work. you came through much love and care. parents may say harsh words, it doesn't mean that they love you any less. there's no parent in the world that doesn't love their children - i wouldn't call those that don't love their children parents, just a pathway onto earth.

it may seem like everything's horrible, but as i recall you said you're only just fifteen. there's a lot more left in front of you. don't give up now. just smile and ignore the things that hurt you. your parents don't mean it, and your siblings aren't quite human enough to matter. as i call it, you're not really human until you're at least eleven. and even then, there those that don't ever become proper human. cheer up and smile. ♥

commiting suicide is the best way to conclude your life? Be a little bit clever and try to cope with the problem. if you think you are not like your father think, then prove it. You are still young and you have so many thing to do. when i faced the problems like you do, i always think that i better die already but i didnt. i didnt kill myself because i know i have long way to go in this world. and i believe in God too.. :) be strong, brave and prove that you are useful

I feels you. I'm the oldest in my siblings too and sometimes I'll fight with my younger brother but I survive until now ^^

Because I know God want to test my patience and I'm grateful that my parents treat us fairly :)

Conflict between parents and children are really a common thing, especially at your age and when you're the oldest in your family :)
Sometimes, part of life is realizing that your parents are flawed people, just as we all are and are sometimes reduced to making the best of situations by which they're troubled in their lives.
Probably from the time that I was thirteen to about fifteen or sixteen, I had difficulties in my relationship with my parents, especially my mom. She seemed to be ashamed of me and made it no secret that she was disappointed in me for wanting to pursue a career in music, as was my dream at the time. At every moment possible, she would nag me about it, constantly shooting down my dreams and really just leaving me torn between overwhelming irritation and profound sadness at not being someone about whom my parents could be proud. I'm an only child but (maybe because I'm from a typical Asian family^^'), I was constantly being compared to other members of the family.
What has changed for me now as I'm in my twenties is making the realization that the very same feelings of insecurity, helplessness and frustration that I feel are feelings that my parents have, as well. Maybe your dad was just really frustrated about work, life in general, or maybe he feels as though he can't understand you very well. That's okay and if this is the case, you haven't done anything wrong. Maybe it's just difficult sometimes for parents to realize that their children have different interests and dreams than they do. Most parents say such hurtful things to their children and most parents truly don't mean it. In reality, there is no story with a conventional, smooth "happy ending" and that's okay. It can be difficult to have these ideals upended, but I think that sometimes, it's more beneficial to have a true taste of the human experience and be left trying to find out how to craft a happy ending amidst setbacks and disappointment.
So don't give up :)

Don't worry, even though he does that, that doesn't mean you have to kill yourself! I'm here for you! I know how you feel because I think nobody understands me too. Except for my sister who is also not a Kpopper. Nobody knows my dark side because I never showed anything to anybody, just that person who loves to joke around and laugh all day.

But there's always that one day where I hide in my room and cry silently when everyone's asleep with music playing, just so they don't have to hear me cry. I'm the third child but I'm also blamed because I'm not really anyone's favorite.

No, like really. No one understands me, since literally. I never showed my dark side because I always say 'Sorry' when I say something. Which makes them think that i'm actually strong in the inside and strong in the outside. But mostly, they think I'm dumb. They think I'd do anything for them and they think they could betray me and leave me just like that without making my heart break.

Sometimes, you just let out things by crying. Suicide is wrong because you have to live to experience the fun, not the sad. If it's too sad for you, don't suicide. Be with someone you like. Don't hate someone you hate. Just breathe air and do things you want.

But don't suicide. Please..

Stay strong, Aina! ㅠㅠ

No, you can't suicide.

I know how it feels. I'm the oldest. I get blamed on, tattletales. My younger brother is so disrespectful. When I try to guide him with words he talks back to me. for example if I said to Stop being disrespectful..he would say "NO. You are disrespectful!" I get so angry that just tears come out. There's so much pressure in being the oldest and I don't like that kind of pressure. And My parents believe every single thing my brother tells them. When my brother's doing something wrong they just say "He's just a child." But he's already old enough to understand. Yah. I feel how you feel.

girl, we're in the same situation except i don't have sisters *only an older bro and 2 younger brothers* . I argued with them hours ago when my parents went to work. I even told them to get out and almost broke their laptops dll, until tercakap adik tu anak angkat *just lying that time* punya la gaduh sampai adik-II menangis cakap nak lari rumah.

The point is, arguments between brothers and sisters are mostly natural, because there's no such thing as perfect family. Umpama air dicincang takkan putus, camtu la hubungan adik beradik. So jangan frust sangat! :)