Hello guys! XD

I'm writing to wish all my dearest friends, subscribers, readers and random people who have somehow found their way to this blog post of mine a very merry Christmas and the most glorious new year to come. It's a little early but this might be my last time writing here this year as I will be going on vacation to a place where I'm not sure if I'll come by a wi-fi connection. So I had to take this opportunity to wish you guys and just say a few things that I must.

First of all, I want to begin by saying how special and memorable this year had been for me. Not just in general, but also here, on AFF. This year, I made really good friends from halfway across the world, something I never imagined would happen in my entire life. I have experienced random acts of kindness by strangers- again, something I had thought only happened in those made-up stories that was supposed to encourage people to be nice. I had seen the lowest point of my life as a student and I have done a lot of self-reflecting in efforts of discovering myself.

Of course, you must be thinking, why the hell would all of that concern you guys. But it does. In a very big way. I've always said my writing hobby is an escape from my reality and all of you wonderful people have made this reality of mine the loveliest place ever. Every single comment, every subscription and upvote, all of it. It has meant so much to me and it had picked me up whenever I was feeling low. Speaking of that, I cannot stop here  without pointing out how much three special people have changed my perception of the world forever.

The first is, of course, my lovely husband, atkluna. The first ever 'stranger' that I skyped with and made me feel all badass and stuff. Just for the sole reason I have never done it before, neither have I ever been allowed to. (Yes, I'm 19 and I live by my parent's rules- judge away.) It was a bad time for her and she gave me the opportunity to see how people were living in the real world out there, for I have lived in my safe little coccoon my whole life. She has been a wonderful companion and shared her brilliant, most times eccentric ideas with me through her stories. I am ever so grateful to have found a great friend (and a little more, if you know what I mean love... *wiggles eyebrows*) in her. I love you, my dearest darling! XD

Secondly, I must take the opportunity here to thank my wonderful, sweet, kind, brilliant friend, LittleBee. My German tutor, guru and so much more. This sweet girl always wrote me mile-long messages, tirelessly telling me everything she has experienced, sharing every little thing with me in hopes that I would find happiness in it as she does. She did all that in German, most of the times. That has kept me on track with my language and updated with the culture I will soon have to adapt to. She's also the reason I did my oral test as well as I thought I did. For that, I think I owe you thousands and thousands of flower garlands, all as my show of appreciation to you!

And lastly, but definitely not the least, comes Miss Shawol360. A kind soul that somehow happened to wander onto my path, something I am forever grateful for. There was a period of time in this past year that I hit a complete low. I felt lost, aimless and useless. I felt like I was doing no one any favour by living since I was no use to anyone and that I can't even do the one job given to me well- to study. It was a time when I was pushing myself to limits way higher than what I was capable of. That was when she gifted me with this gem of a story that stopped me from the constant self-bashing. She put me in a happy place for a bit and I parted from my stress as her story grew and grew. I remember a time when I saw an update of her story after I had been crying for so long. Reading her story had put an instant smile on my face. I don't think she realizes how much she has helped me, but I wish to tell her just how grateful I am to her for saving me from myself.

I may have been a speck in your lives, but every little connection I made with people through my stories has had a monumental effect on me. Inside my head can be a very lonely place to be, but the more I wrote, the less lonely I felt and most importanly, the more I valued myself. It has been a great journey and I know it will continue. But this will be the end of this leg of my journey. So thank you! Every one of you! XD

Here! Have some Shinee goodness!! XP

Oh and what the heck, adorable minkey too!

Have a great day ahead people! I told Santa to grant all your wishes even if you have been naughty, so sleep tight! XD