I've been wondering... about my dream. As in like what I want to do when I grow up.

I want to be a famous dancer, actually more preferrably becoming a kpop star. but I know the chances of being one is like super super small since I'm not really pretty, I'm abit fat. Just a famous dancer, maybe a dance teacher, i guess. Or maybe a backup dancer. As long as I get to perform in front of everyone.

I also want to be an author/writer which is why I started to write on AFF. I at first actually started thinking about being a writer after I started to love to read. Because I want others to be happy or sad, when they read what I write. I want others to love reading.

BUT BUT. I've realised... how many people actually succeeded their dreams. Have you ever thought of that actually? I've started thinking of it just lately. 

I'm kinda sure that those people working at those banks, cashiers, etc. don't want to be what they are now. I'm kinda sure that they wanted to be something else. It's very hard to achieve your dreams, honestly. Because your competitors are like WOAH. SO MANYYYY.

This just makes my self-esteem so low. Especially after I see all the pretty, skinny dancers....

I'm sorry if I make you guys down. Just believe in yourself.

I'm still going to hold on to my dream, because of what my mom said to me when she went to see a fortune teller. The fortune teller told her I would be in the arts. Arts could mean DANCING, singing (I at singing) or drawing (my drawing too)... It may sound stupid but I'm a superstitious person.