So. For the last couple of weeks I had been feeling pretty ty and insecure about myself. Reason being that....well about 2 weeks ago, my boyfriend came to visit me and of course I went out with him together with a few other of my colleagues. The thing about my boyfriend is that he's really, really friendly and gets along easily with everyone. So ok no problem with that.

But then I found out that this one female colleague had been texting him almost everyday after our night out, and I am insanely, insanely jealous. (I know this cos my boyfriend told me about it. He honestly was getting annoyed with her daily texts but he's just way too nice to tell her off. Or just plain ignore her).

I gotta say that yes, he is quite a looker, but c'mon it's not like she doesn't know that him and I are a couple! At the same time I am super pissed at him for continuously entertaining this and I am pretty sure by now that she probably thinks he likes her or something. Knock on wood I seriously hope that is not true, but this whole thing has pretty much left me feeling insecure about myself. Maybe because the fact that I think she's way hotter than me and way more sociable. What if she really manages to seduce him? :/

I already told my boyfriend about how I feel, but he kept on telling me not to worry, he doesn't have any feelings for her and blablabla the usual cliche stuff. BUT I STILL WORRY. That one day he suddenly might just call it off and runs away with her. 

This has been bugging me for this past 2 weeks and it doesn't help that I have to see this 's face almost everyday. And it has somehow made me feel not special anymore because my boyfriend is talking to another girl on a daily basis. Well...texting. But still. It just annoys the out of me! And I know that this girl does have feelings for him because whenever my boyfriend calls me at work, her stupid head would always suddenly perk up from her desk and she always tells me to say 'Hi' to him over the phone. (How about you say hi to my FIST). AND, she would ALWAYS talk about the things that my boyfriend told her over their texts--I mean, what are you trying to do here?

Been so down about this and I feel so helpless because as much as I want them both to stop this nonsense, I just don't have the power to. I don't wanna be like an over-controlling girlfriend that decides which girl can my boyfriend befriend or not. I have this little evil thought about doing the same thing to my boyfriend, by texting some dude everyday, just so that he can feel what I feel. But I dunno if that is a good idea or not :/

I'm kinda reluctant to talk about this to my other colleagues and friends because I don't want them to think that I'm being paranoid over the whole situation, hence why I'm pouring out my heart here.

*sigh* ..... I dunno what to do...... TT_TT