Confession 32

Maybe, I shouldn't have judged you.
Maybe, I should've never told you everything I know.
You don't know me and I don't know you, I should've just kept my mouth shut.

I'm sorry if I hurt you and if I destroyed your relationship with your best friend and your girlfriend. I'm so so sorry.

I feel like you hate me, and you most probably do, and although I'm used to people bullying me, I'm not used to being hated. It gives me another reason to slash my wrists and hate myself.

If you read this, I'm sorry.

For the girlfriend, you know who you are, we've all kept secrets from you. I'm part of it and I'm sorry. I feel like it's my fault too, and I felt the need to do this. If you read this, sorry is all I could say.

The blood drips down my wrists and I know I deserve it.

One, two, three. Slash, slash, slash.

I freaking deserve it.

I'm sorry.

I don't think I could say anything more, and I don't think I should.

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knnara
#1
this is wrong. maybe i couldn't stop you from harming yourself. or maybe i shouldn't even care. or maybe i can't move you with this post of mine. i can't stop you from hurting. everyone normal experiences that feeling of depression. that's the only thing to know that you're still human. almost everyone of us have been there. but it's another thing to hurt yourself physically. you can just bawl your eyes out in front of someone. or you could put everything in a journal. if you need a friend, we'll be here for you. we'll listen. or if you want us to talk, we will. you're not alone in this world. isn't it enough that we're telling you these to make you feel your worth as a person? that you're special and that's why we're taking our time here telling these? i'm not saying this because i want to please you. i'm saying this because it's true. we're open for you - we've felt what you're feeling right now. we're all human.
ssicah
#2
oh my gosh. anon, please don't cut yourself, it really does not solve any problems, I know because I've been down that path, in the end I never achieved anything. and for the sake of your health and well being, please don't harm yourself, you'll worry not only me but everyone who reads this and it causes /us/ pain as well, if it's someone that you just want to talk to then you can always come to me, I'll always be here for you and for everyone else who needs a person who will listen. so please, don't waste such things for something that is not worth it, you really don't want to. ;o
soo-un
#3
oh no. please don't do that < / 3
im here too whoever you are :'c
it makes my heart break when people
think like this..
MamiScandal
#4
Same
I've been there, have the scars to prove it. Come talk to me, I'll help you get through it.
I promise it'll get better
jonggdae
#5
oh god. please please don't ever cut, it's not worth it, yeah? sure i don't know what's
going on, i don't know what happened but cutting / self-harming isn't the solution. :c
my pm is always open to whoever you are.