While I may be late in posting this blog post, I've not been late in celebrating Minho's birthday in my heart (and Facebook). This day gives me so much happiness because without it, my/our precious Choi Minho would not be born on it. Happy birthday to my sweet, sweet man-baby, my special childlike prince with a heart of gold, unyielding determination and skill, endless compassion and loyalty. He is the inspiration that that got me through school, that makes me strive to be a better person and friend. I truly love him, no matter how stupid it sounds or no matter how people may not (or ever) understand.

I spent the day celebrating him in my own special way, remembering him constantly and wondering what he is up to, hoping that he is sharing it with those who matter most to him. And my husband was also so kind to include the event in his day also. Because he supports my love for him, Minho has strangely inspired me to be a better wife. It probably sounds crazy; that's fine, I don't care. Three years ago I was in the darkest time of my life that has only recently begun to get better this past year, and it was my unending love for Minho that got me through it in a way I did not expect. Minho saved me - all of SHINee really, but mainly him. It's made me a stronger person, a better friend, a more sensitive wife, and just an overall more happy human being. And for that, he is precious to me, no matter how much he will never know this, or possibly ever care. I am okay with never meeting him in this life and I know I'll never be important to him. But like Dr. Choi says to him on Medical Top Team, "I have a feeling I will be your friend even in the next life. I will always be by your side, supporting you." That's my heart also. I may be just one of thousands of Flamers/Shawols, but my love is very real for him, even if he never knows it. 

Happy birthday my dearest. I am so proud of you: who you are, what you've done, who you strive to be. You are the most beautiful person, inside and out. I wish you every blessing, miracle, health and happiness (please take care of yourself; you look so sickly of late), and every fortune in this life and the next that you desire. You will always be part of me.  <3UM