Woke up this morning crying. Still am. Hoping venting helps. I miss my dad so much and my one year old reminds me so much of him. That is weird, because I was adopted?, but my son still looks like him. Then being scared to death when my daughter came to me crying that her heart hurt and was beating really fast. Luckily it isn't anything serious, but as the mom, you try not to show how scared you really are so your child can stay calm. There are other things that are running through my mind, but those two are the biggest things. No one else is awake yet, so I'll cry now and then try to go back to being strong before the kids wake up.