You know.. am not a person who good to express her feelings to someone and thats the reason why I choose to write about it. But, I can write it anywhere,can I? But I choose to write it here then in my blogspot. Just because I feel that my real friend ain't understand my feeling like you guys which is make you guys as a great author, shall I add more? /chuckles/ It kind off embarassing story ok?

Ok. Let the story begins...

Once upon a time, there's a girl ahh it off im at this !!!!

Alright, let's do this. Jia you!

Ok. There's a boy at my work place. Actually, he kind of close with my mom since she works there for a long time and so do he, so, I just keep my poker face when he smile at me or trying to talk to me.And, he kind of seeking for my attention to notice him. Well, I do noticed him but I just shrugged it of because, dude, I've been friended with boys for 16 friggin' years to know them very well.That's where I went wrong all the way because, after eid (Muslim's celebration), he got transfer to boutique which is far away from my department and since that, I've been missing his attention (lol) I know that, though...

I always try to get his attention by 'aciddently' passed by in front of his boutique because I know, he'll saw me and he'll always remember me because I'm afraid he'll forget about me. I will never let people forget about me. Like, never.
It happen in a month I guess? My mom told me about he being tired working at boutique and I was like "What the hell?Do I care?" 
And I think she can feel something odd about me and him. (lol)

And skipping certain part. Am so lazy (lol) It's 00.40 am here and I still got morning shift tomorrow guise, so please, bear with my grammar :3

I took 1 week leave because of my exam and once I started my work, I saw him at my department entrance. Well, actually, my mom who saw and greet him first while me, being the cold me again. (lol)
Okay. He actually quit from boutique and work back at Parkson (my department name's) in different brand. Ok. This is awful. I actually think that he came back because of me. (lol) I now right! The distance of our counter is just 1 counter and how am I not thinking of that?! duh

Ok. We'll skipping again.

I like him. Yeah. But not that I want to date him. No. I just want to know him well and be friended with him. But, you know, I kind of react opposite with someone I like. I dont even once replied his smile towards me. Am not kiddin' you. My friend who I called her sister once said that he always stole a glance at me, have the same time of recess with me. What I've been thinking right now, why didn't he just talk to me like he talk to other newincomers? Now, I felt so pathetic. I struggled to have a talk with and I even tried to smile to him but, you know, I'm worst then pathetic when I'm nervous as hell. Believe me.

And last three days, there's another boy who came at me and ask to date me. I was like "What the hell man? I dont even like you" And he is forcing me! I was on my nerve to give him a punch and because of my kind side, I let him go. And guess what? He ask again in the next days. I felt something about his proposing. It was all in sudden and I dont think he really like me. HE ACTUALLY FORCING ME GAHHHHH!
I told my sister about it and she also thinking what i've been thinking! I think that he was betting with somebody if I'm going to accept anybody to be my boyfriend. What the ? I've been single for 1 year+ now and I'm really okay with that. Gosh, I dont even really need men in my life though!

Huh~ Back to the boy who I had crush on him. He's . He's manwhore (the good one and not the ed up one). He's 20 cm taller than me (I guess because he is very tall).He's voice were cute on the phone(Let's keep this as a secret. I tricked him once lol).He's not a smoker(That's explained why his voice were so lovely.But mine is better kkkkk) He's not that kind of handsome guy but, the view of his face making me relax and calm and peace (sometimes when he is not surrounded by girls)

Ok. Im done. Thank you for reading my not-so-girly-feeling's-express. ciao! wan an ni men! <3

Ended at 01.08. Jaljayo sarangs!