'The only constant is change'. 

This is the latest quote I use to cover up my choices of the past, the mistakes of the present. Because I'm changing, and I'm confused. I don't know whether I'm on the right path. For the first time in a couple of years, I'm wavering again.

So I put a song on replay and vent out my heart, hoping that he can hear me. He won't, of course, but I keep on hoping. In vain, actually...

Rememeber how I mentioned once that I don't want to get involved with bad guys? Heck, too late for that. Bad boys have a certain something which attracts people to them, some sort of charm which is impossible to undo. Their love is intense, their words fiery and touch burning. They come like tornadoes and when they leave, they take a piece of your heart with them. 

I never thought I could hurt like this, but... the moment he walked past me, nearly brushing his shoulder against me, and acting as if I was mere air... Something inside of me was torn. And I still hurt. Up to today, I thought that perhaps he'd be back one day. He needs me, no? 

Uh-huh, he does. But he's not coming back. Never again. So I'm back to square one, trying to sew my broken heart, yearning to become someone's 'home'. When is it going to happen?

There's this feeling inside of my chest, hovering over my heart, making me unable to perceive anything but pain. Pain, pain, pain... When is it going to go away? My little heart can take this much pain. 

Boy, I could've helped you. We could have been so brilliant together, so kind. I wish you could've seen the world from my eyes. Perhaps then you wouldn't have walked away so easily, stepping over the crying me.

But don't worry, I'm waiting for you. Because I know, you will come back. And when you do, I'm going to tear you apart, piece by piece, with this overwhelming pain turned into endless love.

So, come. Come already.

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Inspiration strikes again :'D. How do you find it?