how do I even start this OMG I can't even type correctly ( jokes, actually I'm typing on my iPod so it capitalizes i's sometimes and some words are in caps cuz I typed them in all caps before and its stuck like that so... uh, idk my iPod is weird but chyeah ).

okay. so. today is a speshul day~ well, today in America, anyways... why is it speshul? because it's the birthday of one of my bestest friends in the world~ her name is tammie hoang and she one of the most wonderful people in the universe! she keeps denying it but do not believe her!

let's see: how about starting with how we met? yeah, that sounds nice. okay. so. to be quite honest, I don't really remember /slapped/ I AM SO SORRY OKEII I WISH I COULD REMEMBER EVERYTHING, I HAVE THE MEMORY CAPACITY OF A GOLDFISH TOO. but you remember exactly the day we "met" so I feel so bad I'm horrible with dates but OMG you ; ~ ;

i think you either subscribed and commented on one of my stories and I subscribed and commented on your stories, idk which, but that was when I first saw your username. oh, right! back then, you were Tammie_Hoang and I was LjoeLove1560. whoa my username is so EMBARASSING like wtf ( oh look EMBARASSING is in all caps what is wrong with you iPod ). btw I love how your username is yangtammie cuz' Y'KNOW yang yoseob and you... very clever, OKEII ( stupid iPod stop making random words in all caps ).

anyways, I remember leaving comments for each chapter on each OTHER'S updates, I'm pretty sure. back then, your first story had yoseob and Myungsoo in it but you made yoseob the bad guy and Myungsoo the friendzoned ( and now that I think back on it, why did you do that lol ). and it was all angsty because you were like the angst girl ( but that nickname came later ) and it made me wanna cry cuz' it was so good but YOU EVENTUALLY DELETED IT LIKE YOU MADE ME SO DEPRESSED OKEII WAE T^T

we didn't really talk much other than our stories though, I think, until I decided to make wwkr. I was searching for a co-author and you were up for it but... I REJECTED YOU AND CHOSE VICKIETORI OMG IM SO SORRY /slapped again/ I don't even remember why I chose her, I mean I wasnt really close with any of you two back then... I think I might've used eeny-meeny-miny-mo or something OMG what was I even doing?! being an idiot

so yeah, tori became my co-author and our friendship started to grow from there there and then but like at this time I TOTALLY DONT REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU. LOL. like I think I didn't talk to you for a few weeks or something I honestly don't remember OKEII I DONT WANNA SOUND INCONSIDERATE OR MEAN BUT I CAN'T DENY IT OKEII

I think during that time, you became friends with tori. I'm assuming you we're like "hey this girl beat me for the co-author position she must be awesome I should try to be friends with her". so you guys obviously became great friends quickly and much more close than I am to you guys xD

then something happened and like I became part of your bob family. omg WHAT HAPPENED TO OUR BOB FAMILY I MISS THEM BOBS. I met orangecandy and love3_something and that Johana-something girl lol I forgot their usernames I deserved to be slapped /slapped/ and like I got to know OrangeCandy a bit but now we don't talk anymore idk is she still alive day hi to her for me- wait this is supposed to be about you RIGHT, YOUUUU /slapped

somewhere along those lines, tori and orangecandy and you and I entered that one writing contest and so you started your second story. "an angel's voice", yes, AND IF YOU DELETE THIS TOO I WILL PROLLY FILM MYSELF CRYING OVER LIFE OKEII. more angst and it was lovely okay and you even asked tori and I to review it but like honestly I AM NOT A GOOD REVIEWER NOT AT ALL DONT EVER ASK ME TO REVIEW STUFF I AHAHA then stuff happened and I guess we started talking to each other more... IM SO SORRY FOR ALL OF THESE MEMORY GAPS PLEASE DONT KILL MEEE~

I don't think you replied to PMs often ( ahahaha pms- EWJUMMA I AM NOT DIRTY OKEII ) and replied to wall posts faster, but I was the other way around xD do you remember that one time you like deactivated without telling anyone LIKE WHAT THE ACTUAL TAMMIE ( yes I will swear this one time OKEII ) WOULD IT HURT TO JUST SAY, "Oh and guys I'm gonna go focus and study so imma deactivate okay yeah bye"? seriously. we both freaked and were so depressed for days, okeii? OKEII?!?!!!.?!?!?!?!?! don't ever do that again.

there was a point where I thought you were really cool because... you know, the conversations we used to have about us and you and depression and stuff you used to do BUT THOSE THINGS ARE NOT COOL, THEY'RE ACTUAL PROBLEMS PEOPLE GO THROUGH. omg do you understand? no? I dun wanna state it here bc random people could be reading this so... yeah but I found you to be very cool and awesome for various different reasons :3

1. YOU'RE PRETTY. don't deny it you little shi- wait no swearing YOU LITTLE EWJUMMA. before I deactivated my facebook we had like that weird post on my wall and you guys called me amber there and I freaked xD and I got to see a picture of youuuuuu omg you're so pretty and cute I wanna squish your cheeks and keep a miniature you in my pocket~ ahahah so normal

2. YOUR VOICE. don't deny this either because HOLY YOUR VOICE IS ABSOLUTELY MINDBLOWINGLY AMAZING NO WHATEVER TOU SAY AGAINST THIS FACT IS FALSE AND IS INVALID BECAUSE YOUR VOICE IS SO DPALJANDJDLEJSINSXHMLAKSHDHAKJSSN. you and tori should do a duet and become a kpop duo because I will be your biggest fan okeii both of your voices are strong and have that... "accent", but not an "accent", you get me? lol but chyeah perfect kpop idol material makes me wanna rip your voiceboxes and replace it for my horrible one

3. YOUR WRITING. wether it be when you're talking to me in PMs or wall posts or comment replies or writing chapters for your stories I love reading what you're write. your angst is well-worded and pretty and the way you communicate with me is just... fun, lol make sense? no? to me it does xD

4. YOUR HUMOR. okay, ewjumma, you can be gross at times too. but it's funny most of the time... same goes for your swearing lol.

5. YOUR UNDERSTANDING. you're always there for me to talk to and I just want to take this time to thank you for being so patient and for being the older sister that I've never had <3

6. YOUR FANGIRLING. you barely... "fangirl", you know? like, you don't often go keyboard smashing or talk googoo gaga about your biases but when you do it's like the cutest thing ever and makes me smile okeii

there's more it like it's 1:09am right now and I want to at least get 5 hours of sleep xD and when I was banned you swore to find the culprit I SHOULD NOT BE REMINDING YOU OF THIS NO GO AWAY DONT REMEMBER DONT DO IT and didn't treat me any different than before and I really appreciate that. really, because the one thing I was so afraid of was people treating me differently.

i always think of my closest friends as tori and you. like, the first people i think of is you two as my aff besties. I don't know why but the dream we have reminds me of "of mice and men" /shot/ but yes, ONE DAY WE SHALL ALLIVE TOGETHER IN AN APARTMENT COMPLEX IN CALI AND GO TO DISNEYLAND EVERYDAY AND WE CAN COOK RAMEN AND FRIED RICE FOR EACH OTHER. someone please make this into picture text or whatever you know what THIS IS GOING ON MY PROFILE OKEII, OUR DREAM SHOULD BE KNOW BY ALL.

and i got to finally roleplay for the first time with you! bma, lol i got kicked out for being inactive like 3 times i can't even- /flips self/ but chyeah, you're my y- penguin and it's gonna stay that way until i get kicked out permanently xD

I have more to say but now it's 1:15am and I can't think straight omg I feel so bad tammie I want to write more for you but then you'd have to read through all of this xD I want to collaborate with someday, lol. please? :3

btw I miss those wall posts from you where you would post links to YouTube videos and soundclouds and we spazz about bootiful singing like chen ( even though back then you kept gushing on and on about how tao was so talented lol ) and then sunggyu with yoseob and like and I just- /sob

thank you so much for being such a great friend towards me; I could not have asked for anyone better. I'm so sorry I'm not able to do anything for you but I just hope I can return the favor somehow... you're really special to me and it's okay if you don't think of me as your aff bestie, it's okay if it's someone else, because i don't think i'm doing a very good job xD

holy kerap this is such a long- essay-letter-thingy idk anymore but i'll stop for now before you pass out from trying to get through reading this xD

happy ( late ) birthday, tammie! i love you <3 saranghae's and yeu's you~

-amber