How can I find happiness, is a question I always ask myself. I yearn for it to the brink of obsession. People tell me "keep smiling, at some point it will fool the mind. Making you believe you are trully happy." I always laugh at that statement. I honestly do try to remain positive, but then something or someone gets in the way and ruins it. How do I preventyself from getting overly sensitive? What can I do maintain a positive energy. Am I not destined for happiness? There is so much emotions I am experiencing right now. I'm filled with anxiety, dejection, fear, amger. I can't stand this negativity. I know that most likely no one will read this, but just someone out there who understands what I'm going through. It's hard not telling your feelings to your loved ones when they can't even relate to you. Hope someone out there can help though. I've suffered with this for over 6 years. I want to get out of this rut. If your reading this thankyou. I hope you have one or two smiles in your day <3