I never talk about my personal life but I am going to do it now because it's fandom-related personal life.

i'm so upset because today is ZEPP tour in Nagoya. I live in Nagoya but I can't go to ZEPP tour because I have school and stuff. I was really upset but I got over it because I decided to go to the one in Osaka. I still have school  until noon but I will leave and go straight to Osaka so I can go to the concert. Whatever.

But then Teen Top Japan announced that each show will have one member as a main cast and that Nagoya main cast is L.Joe and ! My heart broke. It shattered to a million pieces. How is it like this? He comes to my city and he's breathing my air and I cannot see hima nd now this show is all about him and I can't be there.

I woke up this morning and everything is so terrible. School and work and friends, I don't have anythign satisfactory. I'm not happy. Updates are slow because i'm depressed and can't write depressed. L.Joe you make me happy! Why are you hurting me?

I'm hurt. And maybe I'm over reacting but please allow me this. I need something to over react about because otherwise life will eat me alive.

L.Joe ずっと愛しています。どこでも君に会いたい。君のおかげで幸せになる。。。