I've always wanted to look thin, but instead of pursuing my dreams, I cannot; I mean literally CANNOT stop eating! Is this because of the contraceptive pills I'm taking? Am I too stressed at work? Okay, let's say that the pills I used to take had an effect on me. It made me crave for more food. Let's say I'm too stressed out; that in EATING I find release. THIS IS STUPID! Does anyone have the same problem? Anyone?

I woke up at 4 am this morning to prepare myself for my last day's duty at Mactan Doctors' Hospital. I ate my breakfast and drank a glass of water. I went to the hospital and wore my smile. I wasn't really smiling since I wanted to sleep so bad. I did the usual things: assessed my patients, took their vital signs, administered medications, computed IVFs, cared for them ALL! At 10:30 am, I took my lunch. I had one cup of rice, a beef steak and a crab bits? Anyway, after we ate, we went back to school. We had our orientation for the next duty and at 2:30, guess what? I ate again. This time it was pasta with french bread. To cut the story short, we had our Elective class and as soon as I went home, I stopped by at a KFC branch and ordered two pieces of chicken with RICE! This is crazy. I felt so hungry and so tired! I felt the pity party slash guilty human being after finishing the whole meal. Crap! I can't stop eating!

I know people say that women with fat are more prettier than the skinny ones, but... I WANT TO BE SKINNY! SKINNY Y PERHAPS?

I should stop eating. I mean, I should stop eating ALL THE TIME!

I should at least take something to stop me from eating.

How about you guys? Have you ever encountered such a problem? What the hell did you do cause I need to - yeah yeah - STOP MYSELF FROM EATING TOO MUCH!