Spoiler Alert:

If you haven't read my story Red Skys and Royal Cards and you don't want spoilers stop reading here. I've warned you.

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Everything written here is my own personal thoughts and reflects only me, maybe some people are the same, but this is all reflecting me and my feelings.  I'm not trying to encompass everyone here; this is just my thought on me and what I do and what I think..

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Writing is my escape from life, if I'm sick or upset I pull my computer out and I vent in the form of stories.  I put the feelings I can't express on the screen in front of me, which pretty much explains why some of the moods in the chapters vary so much and why some characters do certain things when it doesn't make the most sense.  That's why Sky acts the way she does, she can be kind then snappy, open then closed.  She reflects my emotions, all of the characters do.  No matter how little I say aloud my writing expresses even the feeling I don't want to show.

Just like how I express myself in writing, I'm also passionate about making emotions and feelings sound real, make them into something you could picture, and in order for me to do that I let my imagination go wild and I have to think of how I would feel in that situation and sometimes picturing it tricks your brain into thinking that it is real.  Now it isn't an issue, and I'm sure you get it sometimes when reading, if something is described well enough you can almost imagine what the character is feeling.

It isn't anything bad, and it doesn't affect me at all, but it can cause me to stop writing for a little so I can try to think straight and not about it, usually as soon as I'm done I can move on but when you have more than one fake emotion running though you it overwhelms your brain and that my friends is were headaches come from.  At least for me when I'm writing.

Now, I'm not trying to scare you, or say that doing this is bad.  No, it maybe isn't the best thing, but I have had no major problems because of this and it doesn't bother me anymore.  I know my limits and when writing is the only way for things to work so I don't break down.

This is one of the main reasons why Tao has been dyeing recently.  I'm stressed about school and scared about my grades, and worried about my life and when I let my mind go and let my feelings out they expressed themselves like so.  Another example of my emotions running wild is when Sky snaps at the boys or what Xiumin or any of them get mad at her, I express my frustrations in their words that fit the plot.

When I get sick, which is actually rare for me, I'm normally pissed at the world and so I write any one of my stories and I let it out.  Writing is one of the most freeing thing in the world, no matter what you write, how you write it and why you write it, your words have a way of freeing you from what you feel, it lets you escape the world and forget about your problems.

This is my view on this at least and this does not have to do with anyone else but it's the way I see my writing.  

Everyone has their Ups and Downs and everyone needs to escape sometimes, so whether you read or you write or both or maybe you do something else, everyone has a way of expressing themselves and releasing tension.  

For me it's writing and imagining and feeling.  No matter how much I complain I love what I can create on paper and I care nothing about what might pass through me when I know it's only going to make me feel all the more amazing when it's over.

Wow I sure have ranted my heart out to you.  If anyone stayed around to read this, you are amazing and epic.  Please enjoy yourselves in life and have fun, that's all I can leave you with.  Have fun and enjoy~

Wynter