• BEHIND THE SCENES

​OMG Do I really need to do this? Lol..... But I have too huh beside I'm too bored right now while waiting for Missing You MV so lemme answer the questions. I've been asked a lot 'Where do you got those inspiration to write the story' 'author-nim this story feels so true' and etc.. As far as you know, I'm always updating I Love You, Stupid this lately because the story is actually almost come to the end. A few chapters more and it's end. Amongst all of the stories I wrote I admit that I Love You, Stupid is special for me because some of the chapters, I'm writing my life in it. Through experience but not with that war things. It just involving my real feelings cuz I always recall that pain and that beautiful love that's why I Love You, Stupid is born. Just as a memory to remind her. The madness and the anger because of her carelessness. The feelings that always want to protect and taking care of her. I figure it all out in Chaerin and Dara character. Some of their feelings and some of those stupid fight, it's all is my experience in life. Those songs that I put in the story is our songs. I admit it, it's really hurtful writing the real feelings as story because you have to recall all those memories back and let people reading it but I still wanna do this because of.....

She (my ex girlfriend), she has passed away last year (Dec 2 2012 3:17AM) because of an accident. She's dead at the scene. Her parents said her body was ruined so bad. I received a phone call from my cousin (her bestfriend) at 4AM but instead of believing her, I mad at my cousin. I said don't kidding me at this hour then I turn off my phone. Next morning I log on to my Facebook and saw her friends tagging her saying RIP. I don't know what to do. I was so speechless. I didn't attend her funeral, I don't even know where she was buried up till now because I was so sad and keep blaming myself. Because the same day before the accident happened she text me saying that she want to meet me. I said okay but that noon I had to cancelled the date cuz I was so busy since I'm running my own business. I don't even expect that after that day I will never ever meet her again forever.

And during her birthday (March 12) a week before I wrote I Love You, Stupid I missed her alot making all the memories when I'm still with her replaying on my mind and it keep repeating. Then suddenly I asked myself, why don't I do at least something to remind her. Since I love Chaera a lot and I'm a fanfic author so I decide to write the memories in the story. That is how I Love You, Stupid is born. Although I know that story is not as good as other Chaera stories since English is not my first language but at least I wrote it for my own satisfication. I didn't expect you guys would love it too. Thank you for reading the story guys!

Alright, enough for the sad story from me. After all the living should moving on, isn't it? Doesn't mean I forget her. She's once means everything to me. It is really impossible for me to forget her.

May Your Soul Rest In Peace Natasha Edward

• SNEAK PEAK​

​"Where are you heading to my precious?" Chaerin caught me by my wrist. I jerk her hand away from me roughly. Looking deep into her eyes. Her stare still sad making me even more sad but I got no choice left. This is the only way to make Chaerin shoving away her ego.

"Miss Lee Chaerin this is not North Korea that I need to inform you whenever I want to go out." I said with my cold voice and walking to the main door. Tonight I need to meet Felix. There is something that still undone between us.

"My precious please... don't leave me and go to him. I told you I can't chasing you with this leg of mine." Her cracked voice on the stair making me stop walking. I turn to facing her. Her stick under her armpit and her eyes was teary. I bite my lips. I try not to cry. She trying to walking down the stairs but it seems so hard for her.

"Don't leave me..." She cried.

"I'm not leaving you!" Karma. Is all I can say. I'm begging the same words to Chaerin before and now she's begging the same words to me and I answer her the same as she answer me before.

"Don't go to him please.." She still pleading.

I'm shooking my head and turn around. Please Dara you can't cry in front of her! As I can't stand hearing her crying, I'm walking out of the house.

"Dara!!" I heard her screaming my name.

• NOTES

​Behind the scenes and the sneak peak for the next chapter is done! So now I got something to say. I will stop writing fics next year well maybe not literally stop maybe I take a very long break. I'm might be very busy next year so that's why I will end all of my stories before 2014. Now, I'm trying to find some inspiration for Every Second To Loving You and When We Love I abandoned the stories for too long. So sorry guys! Thank you for keep waiting for me to update the stories. Anyway to those who asking me about the real story behind I Love You. Stupid your question was answered! Sorry for nagging for too long here. Hihi. I end this nonsense blog here. Byyonng! Ah... don't forget. Tonight we gonna trend #MISSINGYOU2NE1 30 minutes before 00:00AM KST! Bubbyyeeeeeee!