Okay now it's time for the Good!! Because there actually was good here even with all that bad. I'm ready to put all that bad behind me and just focus on the fact that I saw my biases live and in person. I love these 7 guys more than I could ever even attempt to explain to anyone and I saw them in person and they saw me.

Now the good starts the day before the concert. Infinite was doing an interview/tv appearance thing on an mtvk show and it was being held at some undisclosed location in the city. We had to apply to be invited to it. I did try but I was not invited so that was sad. Luckily my friend, the lovely Anailys, was chosen. So almost right after I had gotten into the city and checked into my Korea Town hotel room I received a text from her with the location and it was seriously just 6 blocks away.

After dinner with friends, in which I couldn't bring myself to eat because I was so anxious, me and my friend that attended the concert with me, Rachel, went to find the location and see if there was anything to see. And yes indeed there was.

It was my first time seeing them in person right in front of me. There was glass between us because I was outside and they were inside but it was them and they were so close. At first I had that moment of weird confusion like this can't be real kind of thing. Sungjong was sitting right in front of me in the window and Sungyeol kept turning to wave at us outside. Woohyun would turn sometimes and just look at us all. Myungsoo was smiling and waving. It was really a lot to handle for some reason lol

So we stayed outside the whole time and just watched. The crowd that was there would cheer anytime one of the guys so much as moved and everyone went nuts when yadong danced and things like that. They danced to Before the Dawn and Be Mine and I was just riveted. Watching the scorpion dance right in front of you is insane. People outside were singing along which was cute except when they didn't know the words lol and people on the street kept stopping to ask who was inside. I heard one fan say Justin Bieber at one point lol

When Infinite wasn't down stairs being interviewed we could see them on the second level, sometimes taking off coats oh my. I think it was Sungyeol that was just in a wifebeater for a bit. Thanks for that Yeol. And they would sometimes come to the rail to wave at us outside. Hoya stood at the rail closest to my spot for a while and he was just so gorgeous. His bone structure is something else. idk I just couldn't stop staring at him.

After their interview finished Sunggyu turned and waved at us and smiled and I swear he made eye contact with me or at least it seemed that way. I was trying to film but when that happened my camera went a little off the mark because I had a slight mental breakdown. After they were done Dongwoo came back down and touched some of the fans hands and went to the windows a bit.

Then everyone ran over to their vans to watch them drive off. One van had Dongwoo in it and he had the window down and smiled and waved and in the second van Hoya did the same. It was cute and we left there very happy. It was like a great little appetizer for the next day.

HERE is a video of them doing Be Mine and at the end is the part where Sunggyu waved at me and I freaked a tiny bit.

But can I just add that we almost got attacked on the way home lol Be careful in the city out there ladies it is not safe. But anyway the very angry and possibly drunk man didn't end up attacking us and we were fine.

So then comes the concert.

Now when most people do these fan accounts I notice they do it song by song and I can't even attempt that lol. Honestly it was so crazy I don't remember what song was on half the time and my eyes were just always glued on whatever band member was closest to me.

To start I'll tell you I was on the far right of the stage on the barricade so I had a very good view of the whole show. When we were outside we discussed what side of the stage to go on and I had heard rumors that Dongwoo was more towards the right and since my friend from home and my friend Ana are both Dongwoo biased I had no qualms with going on that side. And indeed it was very much the Dongwoo side. He was right in front of us a lot and it was so surreal.

But anyway I'm going to do this member by member I think and I'm going to put it from the one I had the least interaction with to the most.

Sungjong  

My sweet maknae. Unfortunately he was mostly on the left side so I didn't get to see him that much. When they did their dances though he was sometimes near me and oh my. He is absolutely flawless like everyone says. I'll probably say this for all of them but he is breathtaking. His speech towards the end almost made me cry as well. He was just so sweet and so genuine and I could tell he was emotional. If you read my Bad report then you know that they were probably all emotional because they had to watch helplessly while injured people in the crowd were pulled out. I think it affected them all deeply and they were all very emotional by the end. As far as personal interactions go I wouldn't say I had any with him but there was a cute moment during Covergirl I think where he came to our side and he was being silly and adorable. I have a link to the video in the Sungyeol section. He was seriously cute and put a giant grin on my face. He also blew kisses towards us at one point.

Hoya  

Oh my Hogod. Hoya is just... so y. My favorite stage probably of the whole night was the Infinite H stage. They were really amazing and Hoya... idk the best way to word it but he humped the stage more or less and that was a highlight for me lol He also came on my side during it and rapped right in front of us. Also during one of the songs he pointed in my general direction and did like a pointing little gun motion thing and his lips. That will be ingrained in my memory for a long time for sure. He also did his whole final speech in English and he is really great with the language. He has such a funny and unique voice too and I can't get enough of listening to him. I wish I could've heard his laugh in person because he has my favorite laugh in the world.

Here is my video of Infinite H's stage. Just forgive the 30 seconds in the middle where my camera's view gets flipped. I don't know how to technology guys I'm sorry. But yeah they're so good these two. I enjoyed so much.

Woohyun

Oh Woohyun. I really didn't get to have any interactions with him personally unfortunately but he hurts my heart. During one point I filmed him handing his own water bottle to a security guard to pass to the crowd and that gave me feels. He really does care about his fans. Also he was one of two band members standing in front of me during the part where they throw things into the crowd. Unfortunately for me he was trying to throw his stuff up to the balcony section so I never had a shot of catching anything lol. Anailys though who I went to the show with actually managed to snatch is paperplane/autograph. She actually left it in my hotel room so I still have it right now. But I publicly promise to mail it to you Ana lol Also I had made a gift for Woohyun but the right opportunity to toss it on stage never really surfaced. It was a heart pillow with arms that I sewed a jjik jjik =_= on to. I asked security after if they get the stuff left on stage and they said yes so I threw it up there after. I hope he got it but I guess I'll never know. That pillow saved my ribcage though so I don't regret having it at all. Thank you jjik jjik pillow.

I tried to add a picture but it won't work for some reason. ohh well. I guess my jjik jjik pillow just isnt meant to be viewed by anyone lol. Poor pillow. Woohyun called us his pillows too which was an odd coincidence. But I digress

Dongwoo  

Aigoooo Dongwoo. Like I said earlier he was in our area the most and like I say all the time he is indeed my special guy. He did a lot of really cute silly dances in front of us and he was very bright despite the crowd drama. There was a moment during Inception I think where he was sitting on a chair and just staring at me and my friend. I was like a deer caught in headlights. I couldn't move. I was asking my friend "Is he looking at us? Is this happening?" and she was like "I don't know". Seriously it was for a long time and I couldn't even bat an eyelash. He also knelt down by our side during Covergirl and read a fan's sign. I have that part filmed too and its also in the video in Sungyeol's section if you want to see. It was just so crazy to be so close to him.

We did get to kind of sing Dongwoo happy birthday which made me happy and the other members of the band poured water on him which was wonderful. His expression was hilarious. And Hoya said the water on him was tears which was funny. At the end of the show though he really did cry a lot. Like a lot a lot. At first I was like awwwww how sweet but then I actually became a little concerned. I really think this concert and what happened to the crowd affected them all deeply and Dongwoo is just a precious and sweet thing and I have a feeling it affected him the most.

Also my friend made a gift for Dongwoo and she never got the chance to give it to him either. Hopefully he got it after the show but it's really funny. She made him a tshirt

Sungyeol  

Oh my. Can I just start by saying he is even ier in person although that is true of all of them but oh goodness his arms. Anyway Sungyeol was actually the first person I had any interaction with at all. During the first song which was Destiny he was facing us at one point and I smiled and waved at him and he nodded at me. It's funny how just that little acknowledgment of my existence made me and my friend freak out. Sungyeol was often close to our side and I would just watch his face. He tends to look into the crowd the most during the songs. His eyes were always scanning everyone's faces and I had a feeling he was sad because of the people getting hurt in the crowd. At the end of the show during With... he was one of the members that cried. He got all teary eyed and normally when they cry I find it so sweet but I just really wanted to hold them all.

During Covergirl Sungyeol stepped off the stage and onto the speakers to get closer to us and he was literally right above me, leaning over the crowd with his microphone out. I literally had to tilt my head back cuz he was directly above me. Also not something I'll be forgetting any time soon. I love you Lee Sungyeol.

Here is a video from that part. This was my view of the show basically the whole time so you can see. This video starts with Dongwoo being my special guy, followed by him reading the fans sign next to us, followed by Yeol hanging over us, and ends with Sungjong being adorable

HERE if you want to watch. The bass is so high!!! ignore that. I might edit some of these with sound over them when I have time. That bass almost killed me.

Sunggyu

Yup. Kim Sunggyu. My ultimate bias in the flesh. Now I actually was wondering to myself before this concert if my bias would change at all because seeing them in person can change things. But no. Nothing has changed and I somehow only love him more which I didn't think was possible. He actually wasn't on my side of the stage that much but when he was it always felt like his eyes were on me. Maybe I'm just a crazy lady but it felt that way. He smiled and waved directly at me during the last song through all the white confetti that fell around us like snow and my heart just stopped.

Also at the end of the show he came forward to reach into the crowd and take a fan's artwork of him. I saw the girl with it earlier in the day and it was really gorgeous and I'm so glad she got to give it to him. I imagine he was waiting for the opportunity to take it from her and he rushed off stage to put it away. I thought that was really sweet and I had never been so jealous of people with artistic talent in my life lol I couldn't even sew felt onto that pillow well. You have no idea how many times I stabbed myself and how many times I started over. I definitely don't art well.

Myungsoo

I can never look at Kim Myungsoo the same way ever again. Now I don't know if people know this about me but when it comes to Infinite I try not to have a bias list. I really truly love all 7 of them with all of my heart, but I would say if I had to I will admit that there is a slight order to my affections for them. Now if I had to make a bias list before this show occurred Myungsoo sadly would've been towards the bottom if not the bottom. The reason why being that he has from day one reminded me of myself. It's nothing to do with my love for him it's just that I tend to think about myself a lot when I watch him sometimes so I often focus on other members.

But after this concert I seriously can't even look at him without feeling all these intense emotions. It's a little insane. I will explain what happened and what was for me the highlight of my night and the weekend and maybe my life lol

As I've said earlier it was mostly Dongwoo and Sungyeol on my side of the stage but there were a couple moments where Myungsoo came over. The first time he was right in front of me I was just ogling him because as everyone knows he is stunning. He is so gorgeous and there literally isn't a single flaw to be found.  And when he came over to sing 'In the Summer' he was sitting on a stool directly in front of me.

Like I said earlier I literally just watched whoever was closest to me. So I watched him sitting there and I just started smiling. I couldn't help it. Around me girls were screaming and pushing and there was all this chaos but I was standing right in front of Kim Myungsoo and I just watched him and smiled.

Then he spotted me. Omg idk what happened in that moment and it's a bit of a blur, but maybe it was because I was so calm and just focused on him in this crowd of crazy screaming girls, but he made eye contact with me and saw me smiling at him and then he began to smile too. He wasn't smiling before this but he spotted me and he smiled and stared at me. This went on for a few seconds with neither of us backing down almost like it was a staring contest and then I literally lost it. I lost my mind and hid my face on my friend's arm and grabbed on to her. When I looked back he was chuckling. I could have cried. After that he did the blink thing to my friend. You know when he just stares and then blinks with both eyes? Yeah that. He did that to her and it was wonderful. I think we were his favorites. lmao jk.. kinda

The next song was the one where they throw the paper airplanes and toys. I honestly don't even know what song it was at this point. 'I Like You' maybe? I hope it was that because for some reason Kim Myungsoo liked us. He stood directly in front of me and my friend, made eye contact with us while still smiling and he tried to send his paper airplane to us. Unfortunately because of the blaring speakers the airplane took flight and went up over us. It was a shame and I thought that would be that, but he tried again. And then he tried again. I couldn't believe it really. And idk if he has any idea how much it meant to me, but his trying to throw it towards us was worth way more than the signature to me. The fact that I made an impression on him and he wanted to try and give me something was what really mattered to me. I never got one of his paper airplanes, but I really don't mind because I had that moment and that means more to me than anything.

So now any time I look at Kim Myungsoo my insides melt. Thanks for that Myungie. You've ruined me. I swear the Kim brothers knew that I was wearing socks with their faces on it or something. Since the concert I can barely look at a picture or gif of Myungsoo smiling.

Okay now just a few otp moments I noticed

Myungyeol  

Of course there was Myungyeol those adorable butts. During one of the talks Myungsoo was being all clingy with Sungyeol while he backed away and right after someone threw a shirt on to the stage. At first Sungyeol ignored it because it wasn't really the time for that but fans in the audience were getting his attention and pointing at it so he stepped forward to pick it up. He looked at it and instantly started laughing before he turned it over and held it against his chest. From my spot I could tell that it was a picture of him and Myungsoo hugging. He turned to show it to Myungsoo who took a second to stare at it before laughing and pointing. It was wicked cute.

Gyuyeol  

During 'Going to You' (one of my favorite Infinite songs ever) I caught them whispering. It was cute.

Myunggyu  

Also caught whispering. Also cute.

Yadong

Other than their obvious chemistry during their solo stage they had a cute little dancing moment during one of the fun songs. 'Probably Entrust'. They were being silly and it made me really happy.

Woogyu  

Oh My Holy WOOGYU FEELS. Okay for everyone but me there wasn't much Woogyu. During one of the songs they did reach out and shake/hold each other's hands while smiling and that was really cute. But that is an on stage moment so I take things like that with a slight grain of salt because we all know they sometimes do things like that to make us happy

But I caught a completely sincere and adorable woogyu moment that no one else saw and boy am I glad I did. During Woohyun's solo for 'Beautiful' he went back stage and disappeared. Now from my spot on the far right I could see behind the stage. I could see the entrance to the back room through a very sheer black curtain that didn't hide much of anything from me.

So when Woohyun disappeared we realized he must be going to the balcony section. And who could blame him. At most shows he does the propose thing to a girl in the front but the front was a madhouse so he made the right call and went to the balcony. So everyone was turning to watch and I was in so much pain I literally couldn't twist my body around enough. When I did I felt my back tweak. I was like nope. No way. I am not throwing my back out mid show I had come this far. So I just decided to not bother and look forward instead. I figured I'd watch a fancam of this moment later or something.

And omg I'm so glad I looked forward. My eyes went right to the back of the stage where the black curtain was and the first thing I saw was Kim Sunggyu. He had his face poking out from between the curtains and he had this giant and I mean giant beautiful luminous stunning fricking gorgeous smile on his face as he watched Woohyun singing up in the balcony section. I was so excited I started slapping my friend and trying to get her to see, but as soon as I did Sunggyu saw me and ran away lol. Sorry love I didn't mean to ruin your moment of staring at your Namu while he was being a y little greaseball.

omg it made me so happy that I caught that and I geeked out about it for awhile. The fact that it wasn't something Sunggyu did on stage or with the intent of anyone seeing just made me so happy. He clearly just loves Woohyun and was totally amused by him and his grease as I am too. Ahhhhh it was great.

And that's just about that... so here's my final word.

Even though this concert had a lot of pain and anguish and it was one of the longest and most difficult days of my life I don't have any regrets. I have these moments to cherish and I have hope that I'll one day see them again and maybe make some more moments but under better circumstances.

Infinite has for a long time now been what I love most in life. I spend every day thinking about them, writing about them, watching them and listening to them. I didn't think I could love them more. And despite all the negativity that surrounded the concert I love them more than ever. A lot of us there went through hell and back but I did it for them and I'd do it again.