Just about the middle of the month...

This is the second time this month I've not felt like eating.

The second time this month I can't stop crying

Second time this month my siblings have worried the out of me.

I have no idea how much I weigh but I know I've gotten skinnier. To the point my skinny jeans are too big for me. Just when I started to eat a bit more after the first wave, the second one comes. It's been 17 days! Why aren't I all better yet! How can the littlest things make me cry.

I'm pissed of at myself. I'll start eating again. Just not yet. I don't feel like having dinner.

Is it bad that I've only eaten more or less 1-3 meals a day since the 1st of November? Society says it's fine but I beg to differ.

However...right now.. I just have no motivation to eat. Not even if someone were to feed me.

My promise to get myself a bit fatter has been broken. Instead I've done the exact opposite...

I've changed... a lot.. huh?

Don't worry! I'll get better soon! Even if I have to force myself, I will. I promise.