Apologies
Apologies...
Hey guys...
If you're reading this, it means that you're either concerned or you have subscribed to one of my fics...
So, firstly, I'm going to apologize for not updating my fics in ages. I am truly, honestly and deeply apologetic about this. It's not that I don't want to, really, but I wish I could tell you guys how much pain I've been through during the span of time I didn't get to update.
As most of you already know, my best friend screwed me over and I had been hospitalized for a period of time. If you didn't know that, now you do. So, now I'm not going to bore you with a long essay on my troubles because I know a lot of people don't care. But I just want you guys to understand that it's rough for me.
One: I migrated, I'm living in Canada right now, my birth country but I'm not living with my parents. I'm staying with an aunt (mom's sister) and to be very honest, it's truly the worst experience ever. I've already graduated high school back home but now I have to redo a year just to get into university.
This is so stressing. Everything is so different from back home. Honestly, I've been through enough bull in my life and now I come here and I have to face so much depression. It's painful and I often think of suicide.
Lol
I know what you guys are thinking, what's wrong with me? Am I crazy? I wish I was, crazy people get treatment and aid, I have nothing. Absolutely nothing. I have nobody. My friend, no, someone who's like a sister to me, who I trust with all my heart can't even talk to me and I don't know what to do anymore.
My friends tell me get a boyfriend, but honestly, there's no guy in the world that will love me. And no, I'm not saying this because I want you guys to comfort me. I'm saying this because I know for a fact, as soon as he sees how damaged I am, he's just going to leave because it's too much for him. I push everyone I care about away and the funny thing is, they all let themselves leave.
So unless there's a guy who really sticks to me and tries his very best, there's no way I'm getting into a relationship.
Another thing, I have no inspiration. Nothing. I read my fics over and over again and nothing comes to mind. Nothing. I'm blank. I tried writing but every time I write something I delete it because it doesn't flow properly. Writer's block is a pain in the .
I will admit though, a few people who have spoken to me, and tried to help cheer me up, I'm really thankful to. They even wrote me a fanfic. It's a one shot but it's so cute. So yeah, now I ship myself with Jongin... What the hell?
Now you are confirmed that I'm crazy. Seriously... We even have a couple name.
Incase you guys didn't know, my name is Navita and his name is Jongin.
My friends call me Vi so they took Jong and Vi and made JongVi. Amazing isn't it? Oh god... Why am I telling you guys this? It's so embarrassing...
But.... Doesn't anyone want to write me a JongVi one shot ? **cough cough**
Lol, who am I kidding...
No one cares. Lol. I'm so mean.
But I love you guys and I'm working really hard to try to get back my inspiration and finish my fanfics. Thanks to those who read this until the end and for those who care and want to talk to me or whatever... This is my
Facebook:https://m.facebook.com/i.hate.jaj?__user=739709583
Tumblr: http://jonginmyroom.tumblr.com
And you already know my AFF... So yeah.. Talk to me if you want to.
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