Im sorry this isnt related to kpop but i just want to tell you guys that once you read this, im gonna have my very long hiatus (not gonna update fics)... For a week (last week) my friends n I got our days off bcoz of graduation preparation.. Im a newly elementary teacher fyi.. N this morning when we came to school, we got a bad news.. Here are the conversation between us n the Gardener.. G refers to Gardener, F refers to friends.. G: Miss, we (school) got an unfortunate 2 days ago.. F: what Sir? G: one of the student died.. Me: (grabbed my friend's wrist).. F: who? G: 6th grader Me: (i had a very bad feeling as my grip got tighter n i hoped the gardener didnt say my fav lovely student's name) but G: S**** Me: (my grip got loosen up as my eyes got blurr, yes i cried when all of the students+teachers gathered at the school's yard to bid him goodbye n prayed for him).. I couldnt blieve what i've heard at that time.. I coulddnt believe that he died 2 days ago when i had my grad.day.. I couldnt believe that my.very fav student died.. I couldnt believe he died so sudden.. He was a nice boy, he just celebrated his 11th bday 12days ago.. He was so nice n i like him very much esp his face resembles Sehun's alot..!! His very milky skin n his pinkish small lips are resemble to Sehun's.. Even his name's first letter is S.. I just still cant believe it.. I cant accept the reality.. He died bcoz of drowning in the river.. I really want to say goodbye to him.. I want to meet him for the last time but what can i do?? The funeral was held yesterday morning when i didnt even know anything.. :'( What am i supposed to do??????? He is gone forever n i cant meet him anymore.. My heart really hurt.. Iam still crying now in my room.. I even dont hve a heart to pay a visit to his family/house just bcoz i dont want to break my heart even more.. I like him.. My friend told me that i hve to accept the reality n accept it wholedheartly so that he can rest in peace but how..??? How could you left me without even saying goodbye??? How could u even didnt give me any signs that u would leave me forever??? I llike you, you hear me?? I llike u very much it hurts..!!!! Oh God please bring him back to me.. I just want to say goodbye so that my heart will be in ease.. I just want to meet him for the last time.. Please.. Please i am begging Youuu.. I really need to say goodbye to him for the last time..