I'm really ing mad right now; just a warning. You don't have to read it

Not being able to cut ing . Especially since it used to always be an option. It was always there like a best friend I literally never had.i don't want anything right now. I don't want friends, money, whatever the it is people usually want, I don't want it. I don't even know why I'm explaining it here, honestly. I don't even know half the people who'll read this. I'm so confused. Why can I never be normal? I always go to sleep upset, crying, I never know what to do. I cry for no reason sometimes and if I was crying for a reason, I don't even know what that reason is.

People around me are always enjoying life but me? No. What's the point in living my life if it ends anyway? The world ing hates me for something I don't even know I did wrong. And I still don't know. I can't tell anyone how I feel, it's not like they know what's going on. They don't know who I am, and I don't know who they are. “Help” is bull. There is no such thing as ‘help’ for me, I'm hopeless.

Can I go hang myself? Shoot myself? Poison myself? I really want to, so bad. Why can't I bring myself to do it?! It's so aggravating. I can't wait for that day where I go to sleep and not wake up. I mean, what's the point in life if it ends anyway? Why was I the one to have life? Why? I don't even want it. I don't think anyone cares, they're just sympathetic. Pathetic. That's me. And friends don't help. So I don't want any

Once life ends, what's after that? Everything you had? Gone. Memories, enjoyments, love, ‘friends’, gone. Done. Over with.

I'm not asking for attention, I just didn't know what to do so its all here now.

I don't want to be here anymore