Hiatus

It seems like these days, everyone's going on hiatus. I am very sorry to say this, but I'm going on hiatus as well for a while. By a while I mean most probably forever.

I have several reasons for this, and if you're interested feel free to continue (or skip to the end, where I'm adding a special, important note):

  1. I think I'm actually smart. It's been 2 years since I've said that. Last year and the year before that, I started getting into Kpop and was so absorbed with the fandom. As a result, my grades dropped like heck, people thought I was an idiot, and my self-esteem plummeted. But now that I've stayed out of the Kpop fandom as much as possible, trying to concentrate on my work, I have great grades. I've started to feel better about myself and my intelligence (all thanks to hard work, of course. Unfortunately I'm not one of those cool people that can get awesome grades without studying. Sob.)
  2. I like someone. For the last 4 years I've had a one-sided unrequited crush with a certain a-hole who treated me like crap. Stories were my way to make it all better, to create a world where two people DID get together, DID have a happy ending. My imagination was exploding with new scenarios and romantic things for couples to live in and do during that time. Although I tried for years to get over the guy, I hadn't succeeded... until now. I like someone else. I've moved on (thank God). And it's stopped. Strangely, I don't have the motivation to write anymore.
  3. I'm moving on. I'm getting out of Kpop. I don't know how or why (probably because I'm focusing on school so much), but it's happening. And it's bittersweet as hell. The Kpop fandom has been an amazing place, but I'm so absorbed in school right now. I've found a true passion in biology, and I want to do something awesome with my life, ya know?

I know how AWFUL unfinished endings are. Therefore, I'm offering you a deal: you give me an internet cookie and I'll tell you anything you want to know about one of my fanfics- the ending, small details, etc. It can even be complete. For Holding Darkness, especially, I have a whole slew of stuff. 

I can guarantee you guys one thing, though.

Every story will have a happy ending. 

 

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heera15 #1
Oh my god. I really love your story and the fact that the main character is kris and he's like my ultimate bias made so thankful to you. I really love this seriously. God. It's 1:38 am now and i have school on 7. But i can't help not to read this.
Aww i know that grade thing feels. Altough, i really respect your decision on hiatus or most probably won't ever back again. But reaally, thank you so much for such a beautiful and wonderful stories i really love it so much you know...
I agree...every story has a happy ending.
But then again.. may i know the rest ending of the story?
frickindaelo #2
legit tears flowing from my eyes rn ohmygdo i've been reading ur stories for a very long time now and wow this is so sudden. i don't know how to react to this. being in the kpop fandom is my source of happiness i don't know where to go if i left. unlike you, my studies was already bad when i wasn't in the kpop fandom but idk i literally don't study but i pass stuff (strangely) and it's ur choice and ur life and i hope u've made the right decision! even if you've left, i'd always be here quietly supporting you :-) thank you for all the wonderful stories u've made
White_Tiger #3
*sniff sniff :( I really loved your stories , it is such a pity aff will be losing such an amazing author T.T I wish you all the best in your future endeavours and hope you may aspire to your dreams, I am really curious for the ending of holding darkness, please do tell :3
eunicasundae #4
Crying in here. I understand your situation and there's no doubt about it. You have chosen what's best for you and your future. I hope your memories from the fandom will inspire you to do greater things in the future even if it means you've left and will no longer come back. I'm a med student so I think I'd probably go through the same thing in the future. But for now, I plan to keep everything the way they are as I balance myself between my passion of being a fan girl and my future profession. I wish you the best of luck in everything! :D

And by the way, you're right about two things in your blog post. First, biology is indeed awesome so I'm happy that you found your true passion in it. Second, every story does have a happy ending. Thank you for your wonderful stories! ^^
go_exo #5
I totally feel you. omg
I love BIO too~ and I've been drifting away from K-pop.
It's okay. You don't need to be sorry.
liurinyu #6
I understand, that's what also happening on me right now :)
I want to know about the Holding Darkness' ending, but... I'll just left it that way. It feels weird to just suddenly know the ending, so I'll just stop the story there. :)
Fighting, friend!
shootingstar73 #7
OHGOD OHGOD

TBVH I am really sad that your amazing story would have to end this way... but I understand. I really do, coz the same things happened to me too, and tbh? Moving on or staying away from Kpop really can pull grades back up. A LOT.

SO GOOD LUCK OKAY
Thank you for telling us this and hope you have a great life!! FIGHTING!!!
aeru #8
My Rosie is growing up...*SOBS*

But, I also understand. I too use the Fandom as a way of escape, and lately I've needed to escape less and less. That's a good thing, right? So go for it girl -- go for the guy, go for the grades, go for what you want.

I am really happy that you have found yourself (even if only somewhat) and that you are in a place where you can be happy and be a person that you like. Thank you for writing such good stories, and for being a friend!
nobijin #9
awww.. i'm so sad that it had to end this way but I understand your decision and good luck to you always... :)
Klassika #10
NO I'M SOBBING I THROW YOU MOUNTAINS OF COOKIES ALSO I LOVE YOU GOOD LUCK WITH EVERYTHING AND WE'LL STILL BE FRIENDS OKAY
victory207 #11
So does this meaning ur not finishing holding darkness?*.*
tienmang #12
It's sad tho :< But since you found a liking to Biology, try your best and shine eonnie(?Ithink)! Mental supports come from meeee ;) \winkwink/
summerysensibility #13
So does this mean you won't finish holding darkness :(? Its okay I'm actually exactly the same with studies and kpop/drama. The more Korean stuff I do the more my grades plummet. I really want to know what happens in holding darkness because it was one of my favorite stories. I'll give you a cookie for a summary as long as you want it to be!
Kayy_lolliPOP #14
sometimes i feel the same thing... too loyal to kpop and the grades are going down.... FIGHTING!!! or is it HWAITING!! well good luck anyways!! :DDD one person at a time to smile!!
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