As much as it pains me to say this, I’ve decided that I will not think about, plan, read, or write any fics for the next two weeks (or until I complete all of my work, whichever comes first).
 
I’ve neglected my schoolwork for the past 5 weeks. I’ve done the bear minimal it takes to get by in my classes. It doesn’t help that most of my professors don’t set deadlines for anything. They don’t quiz me on reading. They don’t check to see if I worked on any of my essays. They just don’t care if I do the work or not.
 
And THIS is my problem. I need professors who care. I attend a small university. The entire English department knows my name. They know my goals and what I hope to do after graduation. They always take the time to chat with me about my day and how my classes are going. This is why I chose to come to a small university. I can’t handle being lost in a class of two hundred students. I need the interaction with my professors to make sure that I actually do my work. I need them to motivate me because I lose motivation easily when it comes to schoolwork.
 
For some reason, my professors this semester all wish to be "understanding" of my school workload. They all tell me I can turn my work in whenever I feel like it. That is the worst thing to tell a procrastinator such as myself. Why? Because I will wait until the extreme last minute to work on something and turn it in. I’ve been known to write two 12-page research essays in one night for finals because they were due at the same time. It was stressful as hell, but I did it and still passed both papers with an A, which is why I wait. I know I can still do the work last minute and make a good grade.
 
But I don’t want to stress myself out at the end of this semester. Therefore, I have decided to quit fics for a while. Hopefully, I have the will power to do this because I always have to get my fic fix daily. Reading fics are my way of getting out of reality and relaxing, but they are a HUGE distraction.
 
So this should be my last post until my finals are over and I get a month long vacation from school. I feel that if I don’t actually write this post I won’t be determined enough to keep this promise to myself.
 
In the meantime I will be working on:

• Shakespeare Film Adaptation Paper (2-3 pages)
• Critical Analysis of Hamlet Article (1-2 pages)
• 10 Item Bibliography for Shakespeare Research Paper
• Shakespeare Research Paper (8-12 pages)
• In-Class Shakespeare Exam: Two Essay Questions (2-4 pages)
• Thematic Unit Plan for English Education Final (10 pages & 30 min presentation)
• Class Observation Write-Ups (11 pages)
• Writing Center Funding Proposal (5-6 pages & 15-20 min presentation)
• Final In-Class Exam for Phonetics & Phonology

 
As you can see I have my work cut out for me. I haven’t started any of this but I hope to accomplish most of it by the end of the week. I won’t be sleeping much and I will probably consume so much caffeine that the lining of my stomach is going to rot out, but this is my fault and I must live with it.
 
Surprisingly, I feel a little less stressed after typing this out. I hope to cross things off my list as I get them done. I will cry tears of joy once this is all finished. Well, I should go start getting my work completed. The clock is slowly ticking down.
 
Hwaiting to me!