Annyeong guys ^^ 

Well I just want to share a story with you guys... It's really painful, really.. And I am still deeply hurt, although this thing had happened for a week already :(

I was walking to my school's bookshop to buy a book when two boys (seniors, one of them is my friend's used to be crush) were loitering at the infront of the shop. When I walked past them, they suddenly insulted me and calling me "Big"... I was so insecure and so sad but I didn't tell anybody since it does sounds silly.. But yeah, it hurts. 

I'm an overweight (my weight is 65 kg and my height is 160cm) but does that a license for them to call me anything that they want? No right? Sometimes I wonder, is it wrong to be a bit fat, or fat? Is being thin and cute and y is the only thing that makes a girl beautiful? They are not the only people who are calling me that, my friend's ex boyfriend used called me an ugly too. He even told me that although I try to do a makeover or something, I'll never appear pretty. A guy, who I used to have a crush on also told me that there'll never be any guys that will fall in love with me. These resulted to my phobia towards mirrors.

Maybe I sound delusional, but, if one day I'll ever meet Zelo personally in reality, will he insults me the way those guys did to me? Will he ever look at me, out of all pretty fans that surrounds him? Will he make an irritating face when we meet? Is he looking at only cute, thin ulzzang girls, rather than this fat, sad fan over here? Because he's a teen himself, so I sometimes have this thought that maybe he will only look at the pretty girls. Maybe he will irk if he sees me. TBH, I always end up crying thinking of this and those guys that insulted me.

So now, I'm currently on a diet ^^ I'll make sure, this time, it'll never fail (I used to go though diet, and I lost 10 kilos last year) 

Ah pray for my successfulness, okay? ^^

It's a new start, I want to show them that I can also be pretty like any girls that they admired. I can get a handsome boyfriend, way better than them. I'll make them regret. THIS IS A PROMISE! 

Okay, goodbye for now :3

-AegyoJelly