My Best friend.
Oh how I miss my best friend from the first year of college.
I miss how we talked everyday.
I miss how we went home together everyday.
I miss the way he instantly chooses me as his partner for group activities.
I miss eating out with him when I'm depressed.
I miss how he would steal my umbrella on a rainy day and cover us both with it.
I miss how he would scold me whenever I get sick.
I miss how he would go to my house and have sunday lunch with my family.
I miss how we spent summer together.
I miss how he would encourage me whenever I feel down.
I miss how he hugged me in the train when I bursted out crying from school.
I miss how he called me sister, even if I wanted to be more than just a friend to him.
I miss how he would check up if I already arrived home.
I miss how he would sit besides me when I'm alone.
I miss how he noticed how I easily get irritated.
I miss having him around.
But now, it feels like, I'm nothing but a mere schoolmate to him.
He would wave but won't hold conversations
He would smile but he would quickly leave after
He was alone but he wouldn't join me anymore whenever I was too.
He changed.
He changed in only two months time.
I miss the once I knew who was now only a piece of my memory...
I miss him.
I'm afraid to tell him.
I'm afraid of seeing him now.
I wouldn't be able to handle to se him ignoring me from up close.
I don't...want to see him anymore.
Even if it hurts,
I just have to stop liking him.
Knowing he would never feel the same.
I should give up already.
I'm just making a fool out of myself for liking him.
Liking him was wrong.
From the very start.
And now,
I pay the consequences of letting myself do so.
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