So today I had to present a Power Point about Justin Timberlake... in English.

And, for the ones who don't know, I live in a spanish-speaking country.

And speaking english is weird here.

And is horrible to do so infront of my classmates. Because I'm shy.

Too shy.

And I mean, I speak very well, and my grammas is ok and I'm fluent but, uknow, I just got panicked there infront of the entire class, and even I had a friend to present the job with me, a classmate said that she couldn't hear me when I was talking. Gah. I hate speaking in public TT TT

And after that, I had to sing one of Timberlake's songs. Me and my friend sang Mirrors. 

It was so embarrasing!

I mean, last semester I sang in a stage and infront of lots of people in an audition for a musical, yet I couldn't do this! I kept looking around or to the lyrics sheet (pretending that I was not nervous but I forgot the lyrics), and I know I sang pretty well but, heck, when the performance finished I was just so embarrased cause we had to dress like timberlake and I was so unconfortable in these clothes TT TT and I just buried my face in my hands and my classmates laughed a bit and I was so embarrased~~ I wasn't able to lift my head or uncover my face until I was in my seat in a corner of the room. It was awful-

and my classmates even clapped. They applauded because our singing was good.

And that makes it worse! I tried to not sing with emotion cause it was really embarrasing, and I don't know why am I so shy TT TT I really wanted to cry then...

I'm kinda proud f my self though, cause the last time I had to sing infront of my class I didn't open my eyes the entire song (which was 2NE1's Lonely, btw).

BUT this was really, really, like really really horrendous. Hideous. I totally hated it. TT TT

And my friend was so confident there infront of the class, and I kind of envied her for that.... she spoke with bad grammar sometimes and I think that my voice is actually better than hers (not that she doesn't sing, her voice is beutiful but sometimes she just.. cracks) but idk the attitude was so confident and Idk that she may get a good mark because of that... 

public speeching TT TT