i have no idea how to express my feeling????

this is all like a dream!!!!

on friday i came home after basketball practice and suddenly my elder sis is like "uncle has passed away!!!!". I was completly shocked I quickly ran to my aunts house *after changing* and i saw my aunt crying 

i dont know why but it hurt, hurts alot to see my aunt crying maybe because she is my the one who took care of me and my brothers and sister when my parents where in saudi 

it's been 4 days and i still can't believe the fact my uncle is dead, it's all like a dream 

i hate myself, i curse my self for all the back bitting and rude comments i have made about him and now i regret for not giving the love he deserves..... aish.... this is sooo unbelievable 

hope he lives a better life in heaven 

REST IN PEACE UNCLE!!!

we will NEVER FORGET YOU !!!