Depression
Gone through another big depression this week and it is the baddest so far
She told me that I am useless for doing nothing and did something that isn't close to bad, but to her, is bad enough to call me "Stupid" and stuffs like that
"You stupid coward"
"You didn't help us at all"
"That's the reason why you can't get high marks in exam"
"Compare to him, you are the worst... At least he did this.. that..bla bla"
I'm tired of this.. she will tell me this every morning, before going to school.. I know it's just as a reminder to me but... It's getting annoying
I've never heard any of my friends that have their mother scolding like that to them every morning
I helped her, I do everything, I even do what my brother supposed to do even if it's not my chores just to let her know that I'm not useless
They treat me like a maid, yet I didn't say any words
They scold me like scolding a dog...
They said bad things about things that I like
I'm being a loner, yet they told me it's because I don't want to become more familiar with friends when the thing is.. It's them who made me like this
So.. I hurt myself again (after awhile)
It feels so good seriously
Now I only hope that I can disappear faster from their live so that they don;t have to suffer like I do :)
Yeah I'm crying right now with the pain and it still didn't cure but oh well...
The sooner then better, right? ^^
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