I just want to cry!!
I really want to cry right now!
I was watching a show about bullying and suddenly my past just flashed in my head! All those memories were about me getting picked on, teased, pushed, alone.
And those where I tried to stand up for myself but girls and guys kept making fun of me!
Girls called me ugly, , , a , and so many other things. And guys said I was gross, that I would never be with them, I would never get a boyfriend, and there was this guy I liked and he snickered at me and guys would laugh for the way I looked.
My self esteem was getting lower and lower. Even though my family keeps saying I'm smart and beautiful but they are my family. And I was always alone.
I did try to fit in and make friends but every time I thought I made a friend, they would either scream and make fun of me or they would forget about me. I always felt betrayed.
Everyday I would go home crying and I would sit in my room. In school, I got pushed and harassed by girls and guys. There were times were I wanted to leave and die.
But I was smart enough not to go that far. As I got into high school, I was always alone. No one would invite to lunch. And every time I asked someone I could sit with them, they would ignore me and talk with the pretty people.
I was always by myself. I would be at a table by myself and no one would sit by me. My head was always down.
And girls and guys would make fun of me because I was in special education classes. They called me stupid, dum, retarded. I never had any friends. I never had a best friend!
I don't know why I would like Taemin! And I would never meet him and I'm not his wife! His wife is that Naeun chick! I would have get a great husband/boyfriend! Those guys were right! I will always be alone!
I'm crying while typing this! I really hope I have really good friends here who would be here for me!
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