It really feels like I've been playing hide and seek. Since 9th October 2009, the day my parents got divorced, it's also the day that I started my game.

It only became worse after my parents found new partners, these partners both had little kids, while I have a little brother, which means a lot of noise.

Stress is building up, nothing is going how I cant it to and my parents get angry at me without any apparent reason.

I'm frequently sick, forcing myself to go to school not wanting to anger my dad whom I live with.

I force a smile on my face every single day just to assure my friends that I'm okay, I've been doing that for over 2 years, and I probably will for a long time.

Sometimes, I wonder, do I really love my friends? Do they love me? Or is it just an act to protect myself from any more pain?

I had a guy I liked, he seemed to like me too. But when I wasn't in school for 3 days, he seemed to get closer to another girl in my class. They talk, sit, walk, play games and are just there with each other, just like I used to be, but it seems like he forgot all about me.

I'm the only one left and I found the best hiding place in the world, everyone are searching, but they can't find me