First of all, I know that I shouldn't posting something like this here. I just need somewhere else to release it.

For those who are reading this, please pray for the soul of our little angel Lorenz Kian. He's my sister's child.

It really hurts to know that he had already taken away from us this morning. For Christ's sake he's just one month old so it's really hard for us to accept that he left us already. If you can just see him, he's a normal and healthy baby boy. He has no any sickness or disease. His newborn screening tests are all even normal too. Actually yesterday when I went back home from school, I still carried and swayed him in my arms and I can't see any wrong to his condition. And I never expect that was the last time I got a chance to carry him in my arms alive.

It's really difficult to accept that God took him already from us in an unexpected way. Last night, we noticed that there's something wrong with him. His stomach turned hard and he kept crying and crying. We thought at first that it's just a usual stomach ache. Actually, everything turns normal afterwards and he even fell asleep. But this 3 in the morning, he woke in so much pain and he can't even breathe properly. He's in so much difficulty while crying, and that's the sound that I don't want to hear anymore. It's really heart breaking. Right then, we got alarmed and immediately called an ambulance to bring him in hospital. But, it's all too late. The doctor tried to revive him in every possible way, but he gave in. The doctor also told us that there's something wrong with his lungs. I don't know what they called about it. But it's an inborn disease that only one out of hundred thousands of babies can survive. But unfortunately, that only one is not our angel.

We didn't expect that he will leave us in this way. So it's really painful for us what happened to him. But I believe that God won't take our angel from us without any purpose. We also know that our angel is now in good hands. But the wound won't be easily healed that fast.

I wrote this blog because I wanted the world to know that an angel named Lorenz Kian existed even just for a short period of time. He's truly an angel now. And we will surely love him and won't ever forget him.

Thank you so much guys for reading this. I won't be around for a while. For now, I lost my interest to everything so I won't update my stories. Please understand me for a while my dears.

Again, we need your prayers for our angels's soul. Thank you guys.

'Til next time.