To be honest, I have like so many ideas in my mind right now but it just doesn't fit my story. I've been pushing my brain to think of ideas which suits my story and will gain a reader's interest but it just won't come out. And it's getting me so frustrated. Therefore, I keep on reading books aaaaaand again, I still can't find that one right idea which can be the solution to my next chapter. 

Another reason is, I feel like I lack encouragement and support from people here. There is only one regular comment-er in my story and his/her comments are just wonderful. However, it can't come from just a person. I need at least three or four, especially when I barely have time to update. With this encouragement I will be reminded of those subbies who are eager for me to update and will cause me to push my brain harder-- to think of what to update. Honestly, I'm very disappointed because I feel like this story is a failure. It's just... the plot isn't going like what I wanted it to be. It suddenly went off and poof, all my ideas for this fic is gone. Also, the number of people supporting (through subscribing) is very little and I keep on re-reading the whole story to find out the mistake in it. To me, well, there are  A LOT but honestly I think the plot isn't that bad (?) (or maybe it is). 

It's so hard for me to gain people's support with this story, and I think that writing a minstal fanfic would be easier since there is a bunch of minstal shippers here. However, writing a minstal fanfic wouldn't be easy since there are already a lot and besides, I don't think I can manage handling another minstal fanfic after destroying one (I know I hate myself). It feels weird now writing a minstal fanfic since I'm shipping kaistal and sestal more (omf what am i talking abt). Although minstal has more shippers, I still prefer either kaistal and sestal. I also don't really know Minho that much (since I don't really fangirl over him bc I FANGIRL OVER DUBU ONEW) and that makes me feel awkward writing about Minho when I barely know facts of him. 

Again, I repeat, I'm really sorry for the lack of updates these days and I'll try get an idea as soon as I can. Please do support me because I feel like crying (omf again what am i talking abt im going crazy rn)

Bye guys, see you on my next post o/