somehow a little hopes...is what i've been thinking... though ignoring it all day...ignoring the presence of that person, ignoring all the things that link us..and more..but little hopes is still what i've been thinking, i dont know because of my reckless act to approach her made it to the finish line, my way of connecting a communication to her is a totally bad moved *facepalm*. i badly miss her so much that time....i wanted to talk with her...but my stupid mind gave me a bad idea of how can i talk  to her??? and that thing i just brought out to her is the small reason we talk & fight. My stupid teasing went to a serious fight...if i could just turn back the time, if i just approach her like the stupid crazy girl she used to talk with, or if i just approach her with a simple hello, things wouldn't be like this right??? i dont know why did i do that? why i dont say hello to her, why i dont say "YAA!!" to her like before? why am i always waiting for her moves to say hello? when i can do that first??? i used to do simple things to her before, simple things that somehow would start a very long fun & crazy conversation, but when insecurities and jealousy was drawn in my heart, i stop doing that thing, and i start expecting many things from her.  And the ways i did upon knocking her door is through making fights with her, staying away from her & not talking to her. this is all  the stupidest thing i did. But the word "HOPE" still coming through my mind, that one day, i could be able to talk to her without the awkwardness & the pride in my heart, a sincere talk and an apology that would bring back all the things that we've been doing so.  but i think it was just a DRAWING because she choose to let go & leave...thats how she deals with it. which is the opposite of mine. Her Concluding Break up..hurts me, but since it was all my fault, i have no choice but to let go also. the HOPE might fade, as days, months or perhaps years goes by. the memories between the two of us would be so easy for her to ERASE because i know, she could find another best friend that she could lean on, a best friend that is not like me...a best friend that would surely understand her the most... not me, not a person like me... i thought best friend is something like through hard times & worst fights they will still remain as best friend...it's so easy for her, because i know, she have a new best friend... not me...not anymore me....