As you can see, I'm still in my junior years (8th Grade) and I decided to take school more seriously. Last year, I ended up cheating in my math classes, english classes, spanish class, ect.

Math was a struggle last year, but during tests, I just copied off my partner who never suspected a thing. The finals for math was the hardest. Took me two days to finish it lol.

English was okay. I was good at writing, but wasn't perfect. The finals for english... The teacher ended up telling us the answers so we can correct for ourselves. But instead of marking the answer wrong, I just changed the answer.

I ended up passing all of my classes with A's and B's through my skills of cheating, and yeah. I was a bad kid last year, and still am right now. I curse a lot for a thirteen year old, although I look very innocent when I dress girly. When I dress in my regular clothes, yeah you'll expect a couple curse words from me but not a whole load.

So my reason for not updating my fics in over a couple months? Just focusing on school. Well maybe sometimes I read a couple fics or two when I have free time, or sometimes I'm just too lazy to update.

But most of all, I just can't handle life right now.

Things get complicated, even when you're this age. People says Lay is forgetful right? Pretend I'm Lay (but less cuter)

I forget what I learned two days after I learned it. Having to take notes constantly, re-reading them, making sure I get it right. Having a writers block, forgetting what my stories are about, re-reading what I wrote. My mind is just a complete mess.

This has been only happening a couple days, somewhere around two days before school started.

Well a special someone broke my heart. Or I broke his. I don't know.

I'm pretty sure you don't really want to know about my crazy and idiotic life, but let me just point out a quote. Or lyrics. Doesn't really matter, but it means so much to me.

I'm a writer who lost her purpose. The end of this novel, how am I supposed to write it? I love you I love you I love you I love you. I keep writing these three words, setting the worn out pen on the old paper strained in tears. This story can't be happy or sad. Right now I'm writing such a happy story, but it is all just a wish.

Everything is fiction.

I'm pretty sure you know what this song is. Beast's Fiction.

So basically, I can't think straight, because he's just in my damn mind all the time. I feel like I'm already failing class (I'm almost giving up on my dream to become a professional flute player) and yeah... Things are complicated just because of a break up.

I'm to young to feel this old. Maybe this is what I get for dating at this kind of an age. But I'll stop talking about my dramatic life. Let me just cut down the detail, and put everything more simpler.

Everything will be on hiatus (I don't care if it's spelled wrong) so I can focus on school work. I'm really sorry guys, but grades mean everything yunho.

So I'll see you guys soon :)