It's 3:30am here and once again I'm hopelessly lost in my own thoughts. Things I don't understand, things I need to have explained... Why is life such a , huh? Can someone explain this to me? 'Cause I'd be damned if I get why!

How it started, this sleepless night you ask? Simple. Watching the new episode from "The Master's Sun". Lovely drama. I just adore it! It got me from the teaser and then from the first episode, I was hooked! Anyway, like any other drama written by the Hong sisters (like You're Beautiful, Heartstrings), it has its share of laughter, awkward situations, kisses, tragedy, heartbreaking situations. And then, it got to this: Gong Shil waiting in the hospital while Joong Woon is in surgery after being stabbed with a screw-driver (these two just got together after he confessed to her, mind that you). And then he appears, dressed like usually, the perfect dandy, surrounded by holy light. Holy ! He's dead. Now I'm talking about being heart broken... The guy uses his last seconds to tell her that he loves her and then vanishes in the light. Like heck, what just happened?! I know, being a drama written by the Hong sisters, he's  being resuscitated at that time when he disappears and he's either waking up without remembering her or waking up to be perfectly fine, but pretending he doesn't remember her so he can protect her from his aunt or something twisted and sick like this.

But that's not the point here. The point is the following: is happiness really not allowed to the fullest? Is happiness really followed by grief? Are we really bound to suffer sooner or later every time we're happy? 'Cause if so, then it !

I wonder if someone up there has a thread for each moral on Earth, with colours for each phase: happiness, sadness, neutral, worries etc. And when the part for happiness is too long he comes with scissors and a brand new thread, a dirty gray for sadness or grief, that's being tied where the pinkish coloured thread was cut.

Yeah, I know I'm talking foolishness here, but I can't help but wonder if happiness isn't always followed by sadness...

Well, good night world!