First of all... Yes I'm still alive!

Wow it's really been a long time since I wrote something on AFF. I haven't updated my fanfics in months (or even over a year now...) 

Many things have happened and I have to tell you guys, that I won't finish my fanfic "it started with an affair". As I wrote in the foreword it's about a roleplay I played with a friend and well... that roleplay ended at the beginning of august and somehow, even though it's been only a roleplay, it hurts to think about it. I played it for two years, so something is missing now, that's why I can't finish it. 

Then... the normal victory should have been written new with the help of our great and beloved author victoriousdragon. I really love you dear but.. I don't think I'm good enough to write it with you ;__; IF you are intressted in the plot anyway, you can write it... but since it's been my idea I don't think you're that much into it... I'm sorry, because I really loved the part you have already written... I wish I would be an better author so it would have worked out with us ._. maybe... maaaybe in future we can write a short story together? With only a few chapters? I would be happy...

And last but not least... I don't know when and IF I will ever start writing again... I don't know how I should explain it, but if you read my oneshots.. all those oneshots are telling a stroy, they have my feelings in them. I thought about something and someone while writing those. Sadly my, I will call it "muse", left me so I don't feel any motivation to write. Even though I have my finals at the moment (which will be over at december 6th) I can't write even if I try. I sit infront of my laptop and write something but I never ever like it. There is no emotion in it. And a fanfic without any emotion is useless.

But there is one story I'd love to find on AFF. That's why I am looking for someone who could help me with it! If there is someone who is willing write my story idea please write me!  I won't be a huge help, but I have a big part of the plot in my head and I could write small parts... So please, if you are willing or you know someone who would be willing write me! It's a cute fluffy story with angst parts. 

So all in all I wanted to write you guys to show you that I am still alive. I hope at least some of you remember me (please comment if you do ;__; I don't want to be forgotten...) 

I'm sorry if I dissapoint some of you, I'm sorry for not doing the promised updates, I'm sorry for everything.... but real life happened to catch me....

I love you guys <3 and I still will read all the GRi fanfics here and comment to your great stories <3

If you want to you can also follow me on twitter. At least I write there regulary! @xxsonniexx