i wanna move on.. for her sake and i am avoiding now myself to get closer to any new friends that i've been recently talking with... I cant always please other people to stay with me and wait for me... i am not that special to be treated like this. so i am moving myself away from her... losing me is not a big lost for her... there are many special people around her, that would make her 100xxxxx happier than i do.... its sad that we only get to know each other for a short period of time... but i guessssss....the reason for all of this.........................is..................................................MYSELF....and i guess there is something on her part too... the only thing we could say is "SORRY'. thats how we'll gonna end this... but i want her to REALIZE that she's not left alone in this world... for God Sake....Every people are being hurttttttt hundred times...not just her, so i am praying for her that she would get rid those scars and emptiness and every things that makes her sad from the beginning... i know she is VERY STRONG... stronger than me.... so i pray that one day she'll realized that no matter how down a person is, she could still climb up and find an eternal happiness. Inshaa Allah...i dont know how much you are very down...since i entered on your life being like that...BUT PLEASE... try burying all the bad past memories...please though its very hard to do that....maybe  i am not the right person to say this to you... and i am not good in making advices... but as what i am always saying... I WANTED YOU TO BE HAPPY, WITHOUT BACK TRACKING THOSE BAD THINGS THAT HURT YOU SO MUCH. i know we are losing each other....i can sense that you are already giving up with this friendship... and i know you wont beg again for me to stay with you...because i know you are already tired....and i guess i have to let go also...i dont want you to get more tired for the rest of your life.... who am i??? for you to stay with??? I am not worth to be with you...because the only thing i could do is to let you understand me...but then not even understanding you...how bad i am for treating you like that..i thought i learned and i matured myself in treating my special friends because of what had happened to me & to one of my other special friend before... and i thought  that i wont be doing same old things to you, since you are one of the person who help me a lot to be matured enough in handling freinds... look what i;ve done to you??? same story on what i've done to other friends.... so the mistake is really MYSELF...not with those friends who stayed with me and understand me... maybe i am just craving so much for more affection to all of my friends who means a lot to me....IF YOU ALREADY FELT TIRED....THEN SHALL I LET GO OF YOUR HANDS NOW??? SHOULD I RIGHT???? BECAUSE THIS MIGHT BE THE BEST THING??? RIGHT? ?? 

How i wish we could be stronger through the years...but yes maybe............we are both weak.......

Hope we could still greet each other and say hello even just once in awhile. 

I will always cherish you...:)