i have friends... (up to you to read or not) this is my real story

I have friends that currently live with me in a house. But...

I am always feel hurt by their behavior. 

I think I'm too soft-hearted even from outside I'm look like a tough girl.

What I'm do badly wrong so that I need to face this kind of situation.

I feel like crying right now.

I'm really sad.

My so-called best friend, she is so selfish. She didn't think about me at all while I thinking about her always.

When we doing a group work,she not only didn't help me but when our teacher scold us for doing wrong she always make face at me infront of everyone. Like I'm totally to blame.  I'm really sad. I didn't told anyone. Even so, I forgive her because I'm afraid to losing friend. I had experiance about it. FYI, I only got trully bff when I was 14. Along my 13 years back, I'm always alone but I'm cheerful that I have friends but not friend that can share probelm and happinese. Friends for empty talk only. One thing that hurt me most is about her crush. She told about her crush to her new friend but to her so called best friend she didn't told. What would you feel? I know about it on my own. They talk about him with both of them. I was left behind. What is this mean?

Then I meet a friend. Even she is older than me, but I felt we are very close because we have same taste. She also have a problem. She always make face and didn't want to talk to me, if I'm doing wrong but I don't know that I'm doing wrong. Also when she mad at me she always close the door hard. It's really hurt my feeling but I keep it. I talk to her like always,smile brightly and cheerfully even in my heart I'm crying. Last two night she post in her profile. She said the she was annoyed because 'someone' infront of her talk nice but at the back talk badly about her to my family in phone. I didn't actually talk about her. I mention her name about we buying something. Actually I'm tell my mother about my so-called best friend. I think I'm mention about her twice only. Then the next day I ask who is she mentioning about 'someone' but she told me that it's about her old friend. I trust her 50% only because at the same night she post about 'someone' I was talking to my mother. What would you think? 

Then today I forgot my money and I borrow at her. When she giving me the money, her face was totally annoyed. I keep it but my hurt crying badly now. Then she update her status said that. She was too kind that borrowed someone money but someone never appreciate it. What would you think? She talk about me right? I know that I borrowed at her alot but along the time we had been friend, I never missed to pay her the money. I don't know what to do. I declare that I have best friends but deep inside Im always alone.

 

I'm maybe do wrong thing that I never realise. I'm also a human but can't you please talk to me about what I'm doing wrong because I can improve myself. That's what friend use for.

 

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LeeTaeRa #1
well , hye ~ its me . ur so-called best friend ^^ sorry for hurting u inside but as u can see by ur own eyes , i hope u can see urself by using other person eyes . did u get what i mean ? i hope u be the old u back . u maybe not notice but u changed . i donno exactly what it is but think wisely , we ady grown up . a woman nit girl okay ♥ u ~
midst_lhady22 #2
Dont be offended of what im going to.say...but that two girls are not your friends..you know what for me im going to find another..i know what u feel coz in my school i only have.2 friends but they are not cruel and uunappreciative human being unlike them, im not kind as you but if they keep on doing that posting in public blog or something go and post sonething too, im sorry but i believe in saying what you plant is what is wht u sow..what u give is what you get..so if they did something wrong tslk to them once, twice and thrice but if they didnt listen to you oh hell break loose kick their out of your house..you warned them u give hem a chance, your humble to them..but they are unappre
ciative and acting like not a human..i want to tell everything i want to tell u but i cabt type more bcoz of thus diva phone >:S
baekhyun_lovee #3
Sorry for the oober long comment, heh
baekhyun_lovee #4
She's not a good friend, and you shouldnt worry about her at all. If you ask me, I say she's not your best friend at all. You two can have some good moments, but it seems like to me she's just there to be there. If she was really your best friend, she would treat you better.
I understand how you feel about not wanting to say anyhing because you might lose her, I had the same problem with my best friend. I tried to keep it all in until I couldn't take it anymore and I had to say something to her,. Of course she's going to be a bit upset because you called her out, but someone has to tell her about herself, and as a best friend, you are in the position to do it. Just go to her and ask if you two coild talk. Try not to yell at her and turn it into an argumenr, just stay calm and keep your voice at a low level. If she takes it the wrong way and blow up at you, then just let her get all of her feelings out and then speak. But dont yell at her. Dont yell. That'll only make things worse. Just take it step by step and see how it goes ^^
haneul28 #5
Wait until one day... because i know they'll realize how worthy you are ti be their friend. Just be patient. I know that you are an even loyal friend to them. A time will come that they will realize that they needed you more than anyone else. Hwaiting!
haneul28 #6
I was once in your situation where i thought i have friends but they seemed didnt care about me like i did to them. They always leave me. I thought all of people dont want a long friendship with me. But a happening changed my beliefs. We were on a predicament where all of the people inside our classroom hated them. And wanna know what i did? I showed that im just there by their side, ready to support or defend them. They realized they were so lucky to have me. Our friendship grew deeper that day. Though we became the unwanted ones till we graduate, the three of us realuzed we were even happier if together. That's frindship.
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