Hey all ^^

Ok the title might leave you to wonder, but some things have been going down with me lately and it's not exactly fun.
As some of you might have read (or not) my current job is giving me a hard time and stress (well I am not the only person, all my colleagues are moody and tense, so you can guess how the atmosphere is like). This job literally gives me headaches and let me tell you, it's not something to laugh about :/ I discovered I have two different kinds; tension headaches and migraine. Tension headaches can be handled by drinking some coffee (yap caffeine helps, A LOT), but it doesn't help much with migraine, not when you're light headed and nauseous.

I've had been having a break for the past two weeks to re-charge myself, but as soon as I am thinking I have to go back to work, yep headache appears. I am not sure how long I will be able to handle this without killing myself.
I wasn't so well monday so I called in sick and went to the doctor first thing in the morning. My own doctor wasn't there, so instead there was the replacement I went to yesterday. She said I looked puffy and in my head I was thinking 'Thats what my job does to me' like this job gives me the feeling I am only working for them 24/7, it's no fun. Anyhoo, my temperature was normal, and then she checked my blood pressure, which was a bit high. Every single time my blood pressure since I am doing all these crazy shifts, what's up with that? I think the tension in our team is also the problem for putting that on me. She checked my blood because she thinks I have Anemia, but she is not sure, since I have more hair loss than usual as well these days.

I am really at this point wondering what to do with myself :/ I can't just quit this job, leave, stay home and look for something else.
I am in the middle of hopefully transferring to Boston in January to follow 3 semesters, so there is no use for me to find another job for just 2 more months max. I am concerned that this whole job is messing up my health at the moment. I have a hard time combining uni with work, work on my project (which means more than the world to me and cause of them I am lacking cause I barely have time). I am starting to think my hair loss is also a tension problem, I mean, tension can really tear you down and it's not something to mess with. I can handle tension, but with this job, they're asking too much and it's not really the kind of thing I want to do the rest of my life.

It's only two months until I can hopefully quit my job and start doing what I need to be doing, but these are gonna be two long months and I am not looking forward to it. Just to give myself some space to do what I have to do and try to deal with everything at once, I decided to plan my time as much as I can, just simply when work ends, I don't have and want to think about it, but will have something else on my mind, this will help. It will keep me busy, but it will keep my mind off work when I don't need it.

With that said, I don't know how often I will be able to update my shops and stories, even I will try to have a look at it daily.
My project and uni comes first and I really have to work my off for it.
I will not disappear from AFF, although sometimes I think I should, but I just can't, cause I like this place too much, I will just be busy and it might take some time for updates here and there, so don't be mad at me when I am not updating daily, eventhough I will try to do what I can when updating ^^

I have to survive these two months and this is how I will have to do it, I think after I finally quit my job, everything should start to get better, until then, this is how I have to deal with it and luckily I have you guys and this place to come to clear my head when I need to <3