(putting this here too)

To: @jun2dakay @khunnie0624 @taeccool @0430yes @dlwnsghek @2pmagreement211

Sometimes I wonder what would have happened, where would I be right now and if I was still here, what would I be doing if I never encountered 2PM, if I never fell in love this deeply with 6 men.

The memories are all hazy and I don’t remember the proper date or how I actually found out about you 6. It was some time in October 2011 when I joined the fandom and became a HOTTEST and I found out about you guys from the drama Dream High, where I met my very first 2PM bias- Taecyeon. My journey I believe started there and I regret nothing.

Joining a fandom for the first time in my life, wow how do I even put this into words but I regret nothing and that’s all that I need to know.

Sure, it is quite painful to fall in love with 6 dorks that have no idea I even exist, unrequited love may I say. There’s always the chance that the people I think I know, the people I see on screen are completely different from the people I believe they are off screen and I can only hope that everything I believe is the truth and only the truth.

Beastly idols, they say. Washboards abs, they say. But is that all there is to you 6? Just an image of an idol? Or is there more, hidden and tucked away?

I want to believe that everything I believe you guys are, is the truth, that you guys truly do have those beautiful and unique personalities that make people fall for you, fall for who you are and not just your looks. Sure, the music brought me to you guys also but the bonus points went to the beautiful personalities I came to believe you guys had.

Deep inside, I’m sure that you guys are not just dorky yet charismatic and beastly but gentle, sweet, caring, honest and what not. I don’t want everything to be a lie.

In truth, this is my first anniversary I am spending with you guys. I’m not sure what happened in 2012 and I’m guilty. Please understand that school had taken up a lot of my time, especially since I’m going through exam preparation period.

Even if I was not here to trend properly, even if I didn’t make edits, even if I didn’t send you guys messages at 12amkst on the dot, please don’t ever doubt my love.

Now, to get on topic.

HAPPY 5^TH ANNIVERSARY MY BEAUTIFUL BOYS!

So much has happened even though I wasn’t here from the start, where times were the toughest.

Fans come and go but the ones who stayed when everyone else doubted 2PM, those are the keepers.

Words cannot even begin to describe how proud I am of each and every one. You haven’t just grown in talent wise, but you guys have matured.

I’m proud that each of you guys had a solo maybe not a proper solo but a solo, if that even makes sense. Your compositions, wow every single one of them were amazing and I’m proud, really really really proud, I can’t even put anything into words.

It blows me away, how you will never know who I am and how big of a fan I am. When you cry, I cry, when you smile, I smile, when I see you guys sad it hurts and this is what we share. When you say ‘We don’t stop, we can’t stop until we reach the top’ I believed you and believing you was good decision made because you guys never failed or disappointed me. People say this is all just a phase and maybe it is but I want to stop the time, every time I see you guys smiling and all happy.

There have been times of struggles, when everyone pushed you down and hope was lost but you guys stood up again and made us proud, you proved to us that nothing can bring you guys down and im proud, I really am.

 Thank you for everything and thank you for all these memories we created together, idol and fan even though you guys aren’t aware of this.

I hope we meet one day.

I hope there are many more 2PM anniversaries to come.

I love you,

                    Hilda <3