I want to cry
I'm so upset. I hate my life!!! Everytime I think that things in my life are going good... they get ed up!!
My life is so ed up!!! I hate my life and I hate myself for being stuck in it.... I know a lot of you don't care, but I had to tell somebody and this was my only option....
For the last 3 years my life's been a living hell. My mother's a fake witch with an attitude problem who treats me and my friends like shizz because she had a ed up childhood. The most important person in my life left me forever without a goodbye. People tell me I'm psycho, I'm finding it harder and harder to deal with all the built up emotions... I can't control them anymore. I told myself a million times 3 days ago "I'm strong." but I'm not... not anymore. For the last few days, I've been afraid to sit in the bathtub because I decided I would try to drown myself after telling my mom I was going to was my hair. She ended up coming into the bathroom and ing up my plan and pulling me out of the tub...
Today, she's been treating me like a pest and nothing that I do seems good enough. She yelled at me infornt of my neice and nephew at McDonald's and I've been upset at her since... Ever since my suicide attempt I haven't been able to control my emotions. I cry constantly, get angry with everything and I feel so unstable, like a time bomb waiting for something to set me off. I hate it.... I can't take it anymore. I'm done with everything. Family. Her. Life. It's all so pointless...
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