my condition right now

hello everyone ^^

From the titile actually shows it all. I felt miserable right now and it's because of everything. i cried for the whole day today. i don't want to bad-mouthing them but it's the fact already. i accept what they bad-mouthing me at the back but today i breakdown. i just knew them well and because of this situation,me live at their house make me accept everything they do to me.

I never have a heart to tell this towards my mom because she's not gonna believe me and i hate this. The only place that i felt peace is during school. Everything is so messed up right now and it's the truth. When she's infront of me, she's just do like nothing happen but at the back,she's backstab me and i felt hurt. THIS IS THE WORST MONTH EVER.

i tried to understand them but don't think that i doesn't have a heart to know the situation. i'm a frigle person and i easily to cry and i don't want them to sympathy of me. i just have a fight with my mom because of some circumstance and this is problem actually lead to my problem with this family.

IT JUST I'M TRIED.

I even didn't went home for 2 weeks because i already hear them cursing me at the back and i'm so scared to told them to take me home. so i stay here at their house while locking myself at the room. it's like i want to give up on everything and went back to my current home because i can't stand their attitude. but because of the motivation of someone i tried to stand up and go to my A level exam which next year. i hope i can get everything i want and the best.

i have a puffy eyes because of crying and i have a phobia of went out from the room . I knew i went out or not they still bad-mouthing me .

THE FACT THAT THEY'RE MY COUSINS

well they are from my mom side so she's love her families and she's not trust me enough. I don't understand my mom and i hope she's gonna believe me and support me no matter what. i only thought that i live at their home only because of to be my shelter to overcome my dream to study. i like my cousin's at MY FATHER SIDE because they understand me more than my mom side.

i'm sorry guys for this lame blog but i used here because i want to show my feeling and i don't want to used it on my twitter because my cousin's following me. so instead there i used it here since she's doesn't know asianfanfics.

bye

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seyongi-sshi #1 Sep 2, 2013 11:18:23

Dont ever give up on ur study!! Do study until u graduate n have a GREAT , AWESOME , PERFECT score!! Show it to ur parent that u can do it! Then if u get what u want.. go back to ur HOME SWEET HOME N VILLAGE! K unnie ;) cheer up :) u have ur cousin here (father's side) :) gonna support you, iloveyou czn n imissyou ><

seyongi-sshi #2 Sep 2, 2013 11:05:53

:'''''''( unnie u are the tough one, i know u~ >< kaaaaa ehhhh :'(

leeheemin #3 Sep 2, 2013 05:24:57

I pray for you too... :)

Now, smile :)

leeheemin #4 Sep 2, 2013 05:21:12

Hi sis :)
Sorry for my late comment though... pfft. I know who you are refering at... and I know what you felt like. Just keep in mind that, these was one of the challenges/obstacles you have to pass through. Yeah, being far from family is really hard. But I believe you can do it because,

I Know You ^^

Cries as you can. Let it out all. But still keep who you are. Leave them bad-mouthing to whoever and they will regret it in the future.

Achievr what you want, that you dream :) Sorry, I can't accompany you because of the far distance. Deep in my heart, You are really close to me.
I will always for you here and the best for you.

I Know N.A is a strong sister that I have :)

your sister,
N A

Parkmingi109 #5 Sep 1, 2013 09:43:30

I know there's someone who cares more about you unnie:)(exo loves you).Ignore them cause I'm sure they'll regret it somedays(well i hope so).My father went through the same situation as you before and they regret it now.So Cheer Up Unnie!Fighting!;)

naraa_ #6 Aug 31, 2013 10:29:07

hei hei! cheer up, bestie :) i know this is hard for you but yeah, keep remember Him. He will be with you, remember that! everything happen, have its own reasons. gather all your strength and be patience, nahra ~ do focusing on your A-Level, my dear ><

minime96 #7 Aug 31, 2013 08:32:02

I dont know exactly how you felt but i know its . I hope you will find strenght in you and move on. I knew this word may seem like an empty word but i believe that everyone have their own strenght. All i could say to you is have strength and believe in yourself that you can pass this obstacle. Fighting! Himnaeyo!