Okay, so I used to like these two guys at my school once school started.

....one of them I had been secretly attracted to a year before, but didn't get to know well. I mean, we were just classmates in Chinese school. Pretty lame if you think about it. We were nice to each other at least.

...one of them I had met a year before, but did get to know because he barely talked. .>.< I met him in the middle school county band. It's kinda like jackpot getting him to talk.

Both of them weren't in the same school with me until this year, so that's why I didn't really fall until now.

And since, there have been things that turn me off about them. The first one used to pay a lot of attention to me, but then started ignoring me. I got used to it. The second one... well, let's just say flutes are REALLY competitive. Not to mention, he's a science nerd. I'm a math nerd. Science and math don't mix together very well.

I'm still friendly to them both. I'm friends on FB with the first guy (I guard my fb relationships very well. Friendwhores, STAY AWAY! XD) and the second guy's mom talked to me a lot when we were both at All State Auditions. And sometimes I think if anything good happens, the fire could start again.

But I'm not sure I want to tell anyone yet...At least people locally. I'm fine telling you guys, because you probably don't know them and even if you did, you couldn't really do anything about it. However, if I tell friends here, I feel like they may want to do matchmaking. And matchmaking is probably the last thing I need.

Okay okay it would be a good thing if those guys liked me. But they don't.

I don't know why I'm distressed about this until now. Maybe it's because a friend from a different high school asked? I really wanted to tell her, but I also didn't. I mean, what if other people found out because I told her? (People within the county are pretty close since all the schools are under one school system.) I'm pretty sure the first guy would get all swelled up and awkward at the second time. The second guy is just awkward.

Okay, rant about my life is over. Sorry I've just been reading way too many of my favorite romance novels. >.<