I used to feel so strongly about him... And now I feel like I'm losing it. And as badly as I feel like he's more into the relationship than I am, I don't want to break it off because then I'm going completely against my morals by "changing my mind".

But then again, have I really changed my mind? Or have I just lost the part of my mind that wanted him so much?

Either way, I still feel like the bad guy. He's such a wonderful person, but I've lost it. I've lost it all. I realized that by being single, I felt so free. That was what made me feel invincible. But with somebody else, it's like I'm tied down and vulnerable. I don't know what to do.

I feel so lost.