Suddenly feeling like posted it here... Haha, my blog was full with application for applyfic (although it was not that many....) and I feel like writing out my heart tonight...

I have a friend, a very good friend. We grew up together and I mostly spend my time with her. My father work in Malaysia since 2000 and I was send to an international boarding school there. She was my roommates, my seatmates and we end up getting into the same university although we have different major. She's majoring in Jornalism and Media while I take IBM and Commerce. 

Last holiday, in spring... we went to Istanbul... we really had a great time and enjoy ourselves. And well... I never thoought that it would be bad when we come back to the UK. We are having our final exam..but something really bad happen. As usual, it's the end of the semester and classes were full before we started our study week. She came back looking paler than usual...

Oppsss...let start from the beginning. She's not as healthy as other people. She was diagnosed with blood cancer but she was already free from those murderous disease, though she would sometimes collapsed if she's too tired and she usually have nosebleed now and then. But she usually shrugged it off saying she's fine and nothing really bad ever happened to her.

But I guess... fates still didn't side her. After that night, she collapsed while we were eating dinner, life is not the same. Her parents brought her back to Sigapore and her father even asked her to drop her study. But she refused to do so as she only have two last paper and a coursework before she finish her first year... And, her father brought her back to SIngapore a month earlier than all of us. We went to Hong Kong and went to Disneyland after she go back but that was her ultimate dream and she didn't even get to go there. We didn't really enjoy ourselves but we do take a lot of pictures as she asked us to do so. 

She was then undergo a minor and a major surgery and been in critical condition for two weeks. The doctor was even decided to give up on her but her parents refused to do so. I was there, seeing her mother crying her eyes out...it really broke my heart. I was wondering how would my family feel if I was in her place. Then, I accidentally read her diary and from that moment, I swear I would never let her be all by herself anymore. She is a very optimistic girl Saying that she wanted to stop fighting for her life meand she already give up on her life. 

But, I guess, her mother's prayer was answered. She woke up after two weeks and get better every day She became her happy self again and even persuaded her father to let her continue her study in the UK after the summer holiday but her father didn't allow her. He ttold her to get married. I was like, what? Getting married when she is 18 years old is totally ridiculous! Maybe it's just for me but letting her boyfriend marry her just because he want someone to look after her is really absurd. What the used of us as her housemate if we can't even look after our best friend?

Okay, I know I'm being too emotional but I told her about my opinion and she decided to change her major and continue her study in the Singapore. She went to her preparation class and I was happy to see her becoming happier and truly enjoys herself like before.

Then, last Friday, we went to the tournament and we won! Our teacher decided to celebrate so we end up sleeping at her house before we go back. As her house is near to most of our house, especially mine, I decided to drive my brother's car. While I was driving back from the teacher's house, she suddenly collapsed beside me. I thought she was just joking as my friends were still laughing on the backseat.

I stopped by the roadside to check on her and my friends freaked out when they realised she's already unconcious. I can't even bring myself to continue driving but as I was able to collect myself and just drive off to find the nearest hospital. We then called her family and moved her to the hospital where she usually receive her treatment. Luckily, my brother agree to skip his class and drive me back. 

In the afternoon, she called me and we was laughing happily like nothing ever happened. Unfortunately, that night I received a call from my brother saying that she collapsed again when she was writing her diary, her usual routine before going to sleep. It's been more than 24 hours since then and she haven't woke up yet.

All of her family was getting worried and the doctor said if her condition didn't get any better, they might have to put her under observation. I am really, really sad because she's one of my besties, we rarely be apart for more than a month and what would I do if I have to let her go? Her mother is like my mother and seeing her tears broke my heart. My mother always say that it will be alright, Emy is a strong girl...but as her closest friend who shares most of her secrets, everything is a torture for me. Classes will start soon and I want her to at least give me a goodbye kiss and promise me she will take care of heslef before I go back to the UK.

Oh, well, this happen to be a really long story telling. I am sorry if I made you confused with my story and thank you for reading to the end.

~Sara