I can't believe my sister just said that. No, more like texted me that! She didn't please! I know that was because of us! I know it was because of me that happened! I know! It's all my fault! I'm the one who did it! I've known for years now! Everyrhing was my fault. I could only stand and watch.. I couldn't help.. I'm sorry! It's all my fault.. But you saying it to me... Everything has become clearer.. It IS my fault! Once again my weekness comes back, my fear. My fear of crying! Why.. Why am I so weak? Please.. I don't need you right now! No.. Not now.. Just.. Just off! Urg! Why are you so ing weak! Stop it!! ing stop it! I can't stop my tears myself this time. Please.. Just stop!!! I can't breath.. My heart is so heavy.. I'm confused.. Or am I? Maybe I've finally found my answer? A weak girl like me won't be able to survive in this harsh world for long... Please.. I don't know what do it. I just want to hide... Hide from my fears.. The fear of crying.. The fear of fear itself... I'm so stupid. I can only laugh at myself. But my mirror image is laughing back at how pathetic I am.