I hate myself cuz everyone hates me and no one loves me

Have you ever feel that everyone in the world hates you? Well,i'm feelinG like that now becuz everyone in the class expect my friends glare at me like i am an unwanted guest

And while we were going to watch the high school students perform, i fix my hair and pit my colored sticks that you put in your hair so it will look like some chinese hair styles 

Then when i fix my hair ,everyone notice my hair then the girls told me something like this 

" Yah Katherine, remove that things!!, Your such ashame when the high school students see you,They will think your a stupid crazy girl and they will think other girls in our school is like that too!!!! What if our crush in high school see you?! We will be a laughing stock?!! " 

I just translate it , And you know what one boy said " Smack her!!" Then one guy smack my arms and one holds a stock then poke me with it, I did not cry so no one will saw my soft side and no one will get mad at me

I just hurts me that just because of my weird hairstyle, they would do that to me already

 It's not like i do a mortal crime , I feel like everyone hates me

Roselyn once said to me " Katherine stop being like that, your a lady now,you must be proper" And my grandma said that to me too

 Why don't they just mind they're own business ? Why am i supose to change?"

I know i'm loud,childish,and (i know i feel like this ) y, but i didn't do anything wrong to them exept being so suportive and childish around them

My teacher,classmates,brother,grandma,and other people i know said that to me

Am i weird??Am i stupid?? Am i different?? 

Why do people think i'm a mistake??

My parents is the only suportive to me but its natural to anyone 

once i ask myself " Am i a mistake?Should i end the mistake? How? By ending my life means nothing and i'm not stupid, if i change then they will be happy but i will be sad cuz i'm lying to myself" 

My life !!!!!! I hate it!!! Everyone hates me in the world!! i'm the most hate ful person you could know!! But i cant say it !! So i'm here,Saying everything i felt and every words that hurts me , I hate myself cuz i'm hateful and no one likes me

I should change right , i don't know what should i change so i'll just cry and cry until i am weak and everyone loves me like i love them

i love every one even my enemy if they could just let me be friends with them!!And i always listen to them when they have problems but they never let me " *cries*

Noona you think i'm hateful right? *chuckle* Well i'm thinking that to myself too hehe *cries*

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MiYoung95 #1
Someone somewhere loves you Nic. Noona loves you <3 *hugs*
prose-from-a-potato #2
No...no, you're fine. I've felt like a worthless piece of nothing before, too. You just have to ignore them. I've never been bullied, but I really don't fit in with the girls at my school at all. And now that I'm starting high school, I'm afraid it'll only get worse, because our school is really small. I lost my best friend because I told her I was biual...I even cut myself a little because of it. My other best friend still claims I'm like a sister to her, but she ignores me except when we're in class together. I've wanted to end my life before, too, but that won't solve the problem. More people love you than you'll ever know. I do, your parents do, and you still have some friends that do. You're anything but a mistake, and don't let anyone tell you that you shouldn't be here. The mean girls are only afraid of what's different, or they're just jealous that they can't express themselves like you can. We can get through this together. I believe in you.
Peporo #3
Aigoo this is heartbreaking. Bullies are in every school and trust me they really :(
Now I can't tell u that no one hates u because that I don't know about but I assure you that there is at least someone in this world that loves you. Be it ur mom or your dad or grandma or your friend, they love you. And that's all that matter because hate can never win against love :)
So never think that everyone hates u. They certainly don't. Us at AFF, we don't hate u. I'm sure ur parents don't hate u. Your family and ur frnds, they don't hate u :D so just remember those who love u at times like this and smile. Bullies are just that; evil people. Ignore them or even laugh along them. Just troll them. Say things like "HAHAHHA yeahs hairs totally weird but at least it's not as bland and boring as yours" xD
And if u ever need someone to talk to :) I'm here. So never give up dongsaeng ^.^
lukianara #4
how can you think something like that .no one's hate you,if they do that it's just because they care about you.
ok.....don't be sad...U are wonderful ^^
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